Phew! Patooey! Umph! Blah.
Sometimes I feel like a human barometer - feeling pending storms churn inside, and pulling my muscles and bones, and making my skin ultra-sensitive.
It is like my whole body has a headache.
I put on soft clothes - has to be silky, or pure cotton, or just soft, not bumpy, nubby, tight, confining.
If I am cold on top of it, it can be worse.
I heat up my beanie bags in the microwave, and set them on my knees, ankles, and the cat lays down in the middle between my knees, on my lap emitting his heat and kitty healing to me.
I couldn't sleep due to the sabotage of pain. Medication and TENS unit took a long time to affect it so that my body calmed down. Try 4:30 a.m. when my husband was coming in from work. Then I fell asleep finally, in my chair, with my poor cat churned about by my painful restlessness, his trying to ease my discomfort by his warmth. When I moved to the bedroom, the cat follows, and settles in by my legs, stretching out his warmth and comfort to me.
For the moment, I have put off my ten minutes of exercise - I WILL do it later. I have gone up and down the stairs once already. I did a few light housework chores. I took a hot shower, and that eased a great deal of my discomfort this morning. I had a light breakfast - gluten free raisin toast, and a cup of mocha. And sat with my Bible and studied, since my body sabotaged my efforts to get to services this morning.
At the moment I feel better than I did through the night, though the pain is still on the edge.
Pain is my biggest enemy when I try to physically attack increasing fitness activities. I do have to take it day by day, moment by moment. I need to not sabotage yesterday's efforts by over eating or binge eating today. I will not.
When I hurt, I have to take something, usually with food.
Then I can't move, because it hurts, and I have to delay the day's fitness routine.
This is an enemy that sometimes is definitely in check, and other days it ramps up an attack. On top of the injuries, recoveries, etc. I wonder if there is fibromyalgia? I also notice that at the times I have skin breakouts on my face, I frequently have an intensity of back pain. Not always, just some of the time.
Too much introspection.
Back to the day at hand.
Current Plan - Do ten minutes of activity - perhaps from my chair, on the wall, and go up and down stairs at least one more time.
At least I know my enemy. Working at Thwarting it. One day at a time.
Currently retreating from the attack.
Keep on moving. One step at a time.
Drink my water.
Mind what I put in my mouth.
You know what that means?