Sunday, February 24, 2013
This past week has certainly been a rough one. School work and overall feeling "crappy" from a horrible cold made it difficult for me to sleep at night... I feel overwhelmed and lethargic and generally in a funk. I took one day off of my typical Mon-Wed-Fri running schedule and somehow managed to just barely finish my runs on the other two days...blah! Needless to say, I am ready for life to slow back down again.
I have found that in times like these, when even getting everything done in my day seems impossible, that often I will fall off the wagon. Instead of spiraling out of control this time around I am going to cut myself some slack. Extend forgiveness to myself that I would be more than willing to offer to anyone else. So why do I give myself such a hard time? It is one thing to have high standards (which I definitely do) and it is another thing to demand perfection. I am not sure where that proverbial line in the sand is just yet... but I do know that it is better to be realistic than to set fail, blame myself for it, and continue to go downhill because I feel guilty.
So my action plan is this: I am going to get through this funk and come out on the other side. If that means maintaining instead of losing then that is my success. I will bump up my calorie range slightly (or just allow myself some slight mental leeway) and take my work outs at a pace that feels right to my body rather than stick to my regimented plan. My second 5K is this Saturday and I plan on running it as much as possible. If it goes like I am expecting I will probably clock in around 46 minutes. However, no matter what my time, FINISHING is my real accomplishment.
And shouldn't that attitude also be applied to my weight loss? Frankly, I would rather maintain my weight a few weeks (even if that puts behind on my planned goal weight date) than give myself hell and possibly risk going completely off the deep in and continuing to spiral because I feel so bad about my choices. Just because I RUN races- does that mean my weight loss has to be one as well? I hope that by changing the way I look at success/failure I can develop a more healthy attitude that will better sustain me in the long term!
Thank you for reading my ramblings.... In a way, I use these posts to work through my own thoughts and get to the bottom of what I truly believe. I appreciate any and all comments! You help me stay on track.
One day at a time,