Sunday, February 24, 2013
I apologize that my posts seem nothing but negative recently. I'm just having a rough go at it.
I'm incredibly tired and stressed out. I feel as though no one in my family is helping me. I'm up at all hours checking on my mom and losing sleep because of it. I have to force myself to eat due to having no appetite and even though I ate what was on plan AND got in a workout, I still gained like, two pounds back. I'm certain that stress is contributing to it.
No one is up at 3am after hearing a small moan and going to check on her. I'm the only one. I've been working my butt off this whole week taking care of her while my older sister and her boyfriend watch movies. Even yesterday, when I got a chance to sit down, I had to babysit my niece...no one told me I had to. They just...left her there. My sister went out to pick up food for her and her boyfriend, and her boyfriend didn't even bother to watch her.
I'm seriously just sick of having to be the one to do everything. I'm sick of crying because I can't do anything to help my mom get through this pain. I'm sick of having to clean all the time because it's like pulling teeth to get anyone to help me.
I'm just going to sit up here and cry.