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Sorry for the negativity.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

I apologize that my posts seem nothing but negative recently. I'm just having a rough go at it.
I'm incredibly tired and stressed out. I feel as though no one in my family is helping me. I'm up at all hours checking on my mom and losing sleep because of it. I have to force myself to eat due to having no appetite and even though I ate what was on plan AND got in a workout, I still gained like, two pounds back. I'm certain that stress is contributing to it.
No one is up at 3am after hearing a small moan and going to check on her. I'm the only one. I've been working my butt off this whole week taking care of her while my older sister and her boyfriend watch movies. Even yesterday, when I got a chance to sit down, I had to babysit my one told me I had to. They just...left her there. My sister went out to pick up food for her and her boyfriend, and her boyfriend didn't even bother to watch her.
I'm seriously just sick of having to be the one to do everything. I'm sick of crying because I can't do anything to help my mom get through this pain. I'm sick of having to clean all the time because it's like pulling teeth to get anyone to help me.
I'm just going to sit up here and cry.
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    Don't apologize. It sounds like you are feeling a bit trapped. To quote Dr. Phil here: we teach people how to treat us. I think you may be a person who is afraid to stand up and let people know a. you need help with these tasks, and b. you don't like being taken advantage of. You don't have to feel guilty about stating your need for help with these things. But if you never speak up, people will think you don't mind. But you do mind. They are not mind readers and they are used to not thinking about YOUR needs. It is not wrong to ask for help. You are carrying a lot of responsibility and stress here. You need help, ask for it.

    Meanwhile, prayers and hugs going your way.
    1334 days ago
    No need to apologize. We all need to vent. Those who don't understand that, well don't really deserve to hear it anyway. That would be the type of person who doesn't really care how you are when they stand there and say " Hi, how are you?". We have to put up that strong front at work and in public, but this is like Firecom says, a BLOG. Let it out emoticon
    1336 days ago
    Never apologize for the truth. One of the major benefits of blogging is the cathartic effect of "getting it off your chest".

    I have a book that I re-read when it gets rough in life. Written by the Rev Schuler and titled "Tough Times Never Last, Tough People Do." A marvelous and easy read.
    1336 days ago
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