I don't think I'm a whiner (well, not much), but geez, the past few months have been really hard for me to stay on track with my diet and exercise.
The first tumble down the rabbit hole was the cruise the second week in December. (WHY did I think a cruise was a good idea?) Then I pulled a muscle and had to limit exercise for a few weeks. THEN Christmas. THEN we did the Mobile Half Marathon in early January, which was great, but instead of going to west Texas afterward for hiking we went south to FL to get my parents' house down there ready to sell. No exercise there and not enough cooking, either.
THEN back home for a week before....my daughter had her baby early and wanted her mummy! So off for another two weeks to help them out and of course we had to swing through Michigan for a week to visit family and stay with my mom and terminally-ill dad. While the food was OK the exercise was nonexistent.
On the long distance drives we "splurged" -- Chinese, pizza, etc., mostly because of stress relief, I think. Also, how many times can you eat Subway? (Unless you're Jared, of course).
NOW we are back home, and after an ice storm last week that closed the fitness center, I think we are FINALLY (knock on wood) ready to get back to normal!
Friday I did two back-to-back classes at the fitness center, yesterday we walked 7 miles (including some interval jogging), and today a hike! Yay!
I am ashamed & chagrined that the whole mess of the last 2+ months has "cost" me TEN POUNDS, although as of this morning I'm down 4 so I'm up 6.5 from my all-time low. (Which wasn't even close to my goal weight anyway.)
I've never really understood "emotional eating" because I'm not one to have a fight with my husband and immediately sit down and eat a half gallon of ice cream. But after the past few months I can see that a lot of my eating IS emotional in nature, even if it is more "delayed." With me, it seems like the stress builds up like a rubber band being stretched and finally "snapping". And the stress/emotion doesn't have to be negative, either. I'm just as likely to make poor choices when I'm super happy, too.
Now that we are home I am trying to be more cognizant of FOOD AS FUEL. I am trying to operate less on auto-pilot and be more mindful of what is going into my body. This has worked well the last few days. I'm trying not to snack at all, except a few carrots with hummus in the late afternoon and a planned "treat" at night. Sometimes snacking just triggers mindless eating for me.
We have a busy year coming up, including three major hiking trips: the Appalachians, the Rockies, and the Inca Trail in Peru. It's absolutely imperative that I lose weight to make these trips not only DOABLE, but ENJOYABLE.
I'm going to pull out ALL the stops and use every tool available to me to help me meet my goals. I'm not going to rely on what "I know" or what "I know I should be doing", I'm going to assemble a team that will ENSURE MY SUCCESS!
Certainly Sparkpeople is a major part of that team! I'm going to stay more accountable to you, Sparkfriends, and to my trackers. I need to be honest with myself and STAY PRESENT. Blogging is important because when I'm not blogging, I'm off on autopilot.
This has been a very long journey for me -- I've been a member of Spark since August 2009, and I've never even gotten close to losing the 40 pounds I originally set out to lose. So as I commit myself to a new start, again, for the zillionth time, let me say am humbled by the patience of my Sparkfriends and I appreciate you more than you will know. With your help, I WILL get there. And it will be in 2013.