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Sunday, February 24, 2013

I don't think I'm a whiner (well, not much), but geez, the past few months have been really hard for me to stay on track with my diet and exercise.

The first tumble down the rabbit hole was the cruise the second week in December. (WHY did I think a cruise was a good idea?) Then I pulled a muscle and had to limit exercise for a few weeks. THEN Christmas. THEN we did the Mobile Half Marathon in early January, which was great, but instead of going to west Texas afterward for hiking we went south to FL to get my parents' house down there ready to sell. No exercise there and not enough cooking, either.

THEN back home for a week daughter had her baby early and wanted her mummy! So off for another two weeks to help them out and of course we had to swing through Michigan for a week to visit family and stay with my mom and terminally-ill dad. While the food was OK the exercise was nonexistent.

On the long distance drives we "splurged" -- Chinese, pizza, etc., mostly because of stress relief, I think. Also, how many times can you eat Subway? (Unless you're Jared, of course).


NOW we are back home, and after an ice storm last week that closed the fitness center, I think we are FINALLY (knock on wood) ready to get back to normal!

Friday I did two back-to-back classes at the fitness center, yesterday we walked 7 miles (including some interval jogging), and today a hike! Yay!

I am ashamed & chagrined that the whole mess of the last 2+ months has "cost" me TEN POUNDS, although as of this morning I'm down 4 so I'm up 6.5 from my all-time low. (Which wasn't even close to my goal weight anyway.)

I've never really understood "emotional eating" because I'm not one to have a fight with my husband and immediately sit down and eat a half gallon of ice cream. But after the past few months I can see that a lot of my eating IS emotional in nature, even if it is more "delayed." With me, it seems like the stress builds up like a rubber band being stretched and finally "snapping". And the stress/emotion doesn't have to be negative, either. I'm just as likely to make poor choices when I'm super happy, too.

Now that we are home I am trying to be more cognizant of FOOD AS FUEL. I am trying to operate less on auto-pilot and be more mindful of what is going into my body. This has worked well the last few days. I'm trying not to snack at all, except a few carrots with hummus in the late afternoon and a planned "treat" at night. Sometimes snacking just triggers mindless eating for me.

We have a busy year coming up, including three major hiking trips: the Appalachians, the Rockies, and the Inca Trail in Peru. It's absolutely imperative that I lose weight to make these trips not only DOABLE, but ENJOYABLE.

I'm going to pull out ALL the stops and use every tool available to me to help me meet my goals. I'm not going to rely on what "I know" or what "I know I should be doing", I'm going to assemble a team that will ENSURE MY SUCCESS!

Certainly Sparkpeople is a major part of that team! I'm going to stay more accountable to you, Sparkfriends, and to my trackers. I need to be honest with myself and STAY PRESENT. Blogging is important because when I'm not blogging, I'm off on autopilot.

This has been a very long journey for me -- I've been a member of Spark since August 2009, and I've never even gotten close to losing the 40 pounds I originally set out to lose. So as I commit myself to a new start, again, for the zillionth time, let me say am humbled by the patience of my Sparkfriends and I appreciate you more than you will know. With your help, I WILL get there. And it will be in 2013.

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    1845 days ago
  • LWADE1963
    congrats on a fresh start and thank you for the additional motivation your blog gave me
    1847 days ago
    Good luck! It is hard when your routine is so disruptive but sounds like you are getting back on track and have some great goals to work towards! The hiking trips are wonderful incentive. How exciting to look forward to them.

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    1847 days ago
    I need to grab and hold the concept of food as fuel - a necessity to have but overindulging just wastes (waists!) the fuel.
    You can do this. You already walk so much, you run circles around me. The food tracker is one of my most necessary tools.
    1847 days ago
    Those three hiking trips are magnificent motivation! Would it be good to have pics of those trails on your frig? You will feel so good striding along in that exhilarating beauty, at a healthy weight!

    Your rational analysis is inspiring. I am working on living with that kind of realism!
    1847 days ago
    Wow, those three hiking trips planned are excellent motivation and you're going to be at your fittest so you can enjoy each of them to the max!!
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    1847 days ago
    You have company here! That's why Sparkpeople is so wonderful. We are encouraged to stay positive, never give up, and be kind to ourselves. You have had a lot on your plate. You are back on track now, that's the important thing.

    I'm also working of 10 stubborn pounds that have crept on as I'm retired. We'll do this together. I've decided that you and I didn't totally unplug from health and nutrition, we just had the dimmer switch on. Now we are shining a brighter light on things.

    Thank you for your honesty. It helped me so much this morning!!!
    1847 days ago
    Don't feel bad, I've put on 4 lbs since Christmas. I really need to buckle down.......we have 3 beach trips planned this Summer/Fall.

    1847 days ago
    Let's make it happen! You have such an active and exciting year planned -- I can't wait to see the pictures and read the blogs from your adventures. If there's anything I can do to help, let me know. We're all in this together.
    1847 days ago
  • DEBRA0818
    You have a lot of company here at SP. There are many of us (including me) who have been hanging around for years with partial success. I think of that time as a learning experience and the time going forward will be too. Learning what works, learning how to motivate myself, learning how to stick to it NO MATTER WHAT.

    No matter what your weight, your exercise program must have made you one of the healthiest people going. I am amazed at your stamina and ability.

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