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Getting tougher to deal

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Now I have been working on my trauma in therapy, up till now it has been ok...but thursday we touched on something I am having the nightmares and flashbacks...this is only the beginning...what we talked about brought up the blame issue, and how I still blame myself to some extent...and now I am thinking about it more now...and I keep thinking about what I could have done to avoid it...things I wish I had done instead of what I did do...I just dont understand why this happened to me, and what did I do to deserve this...Anyway, I am just having a hard time dealing with it all right now...I havnt been able to sleep well, my mind has been going too fast and when I do get to sleep, I have nightmares...I cant wait till I get my new dose of meds...I havnt been able to get them yet, hopefully on monday...hopefully that will help with the mood changes


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KATWELL88 3/2/2013 4:02PM

    Sorry to hear your are struggling . What I do when I have nightmares I do writing thoughts down or read a book ( panic attacks are hard sometimes) or play music. Sending healing prayers for you. emoticon

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BUTTERFLYANGEL7 2/25/2013 3:24PM

  Thank you all

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ANYVAR54 2/24/2013 5:47PM

    Monika, I have been there as well. It took me many many years to get my medications stabilized, and even now every now and again we make minor changes. I had been having freakish nightmares about 2 months ago, yelling in my sleep, and my husband having to wake me. I will pray for you to have peace, and for these things to get under control. Ravyna

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AWESOMECHELZ 2/24/2013 8:05AM

    I have similar issues so I understand. What I do to comfort myself and continue healing in my therapy is a lot of reading, spending time with friends, humor (funny movies and shows), music, playing with my cats, walks, crying, journal writing (I do write down my nightmares too), and building up my spiritual self. You will find your way. We are survivors and this is just our healing journey. Have a peaceful day. emoticon Chelsea

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AMR6665 2/24/2013 6:52AM

    I will also tell you this....from experience...not your fault, you didn't deserve it. If you would like to email me, and talk let me know, if not; just know the offer is there.

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DIDMIS 2/24/2013 12:28AM


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ISAVEDME80 2/24/2013 12:28AM

    we dont know each other but let me share with you this.
it was not your fault.
im going to send you an email with some private information, you can respond if you like, it doesnt matter i just wanna offer my help.

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