Now I have been working on my trauma in therapy, up till now it has been ok...but thursday we touched on something tough...now I am having the nightmares and flashbacks...this is only the beginning...what we talked about brought up the blame issue, and how I still blame myself to some extent...and now I am thinking about it more now...and I keep thinking about what I could have done to avoid it...things I wish I had done instead of what I did do...I just dont understand why this happened to me, and what did I do to deserve this...Anyway, I am just having a hard time dealing with it all right now...I havnt been able to sleep well, my mind has been going too fast and when I do get to sleep, I have nightmares...I cant wait till I get my new dose of meds...I havnt been able to get them yet, hopefully on monday...hopefully that will help with the mood changes

Monika