Saturday, February 23, 2013
I'm just wondering today how long it will take me to realize that until I make some changes and stick to them, the scale is going to keep on inching up, one bad choice at a time. I've done extensive reading on trying to get rid of H-pylori bacteria, and I know what I need to do. But it's not the knowing, it's the doing that's tripping me up.
Normally, I'd be really down on myself right now, especially after I stepped on the scale for the 5% challenge. But when I looked at the numbers, I realized I'm only 30 pounds lighter than I was when I was pregnant with my son...10 years ago. Since then I had gotten down to the high 160s, and then I got pregnant with my daughter. After her, I had gotten back down to the 170s (she's six years old). But looking at the scale today was a real eye opener. Somehow, I have managed to gain 10-15 pounds...all because inconsistency has made me sick. It is part of the cause of the pain in my knees and definitely the cause of my stomach problems. This was also during the time that I waged war on the scale and literally threw it away. Now I definitely plan to measure also because I believe that measuring is a very good way to keep up with progress. It's not all about the scale. But even though I know that, the scale doesn't lie. I had to stare my inconsistency issues in the face, and know that something has got to give.
I'm thanking God today for whomever came up with the 5% challenge here on Sparkpeople. It's time to face my demons and take responsibility for my actions. It's time for change. It's time to build consistency...one choice at a time.
Did you know that when a butterfly is in the caterpillar stage, all it does is eat? Looks like I've been in that stage for far too long. It's time to go through metamorphosis and emerge into the beautiful butterfly that's dying to get out and fly!
***So proud to be a Beautiful Butterfly!***