Saturday, February 23, 2013
The Hardest part is saying NO! What do I mean about this...is it is hard to say NO to foods I should not eat because they go to my WAIST. It is easy to say I know what I should and should not eat. It is easy to say I can do this but when it comes to it I fail a lot lately. Why do I do this well I am an emotional eater. I eat for happiness, sadness, stressed out and not stressed out. Love pastas and starch filled foods..have always gravitated toward those. Lately it has been even harder than usual I am still jobless I am trying very hard to find that job out there but keep on getting turned down one after another that I apply for. I keep on being told they like my resume but that they found someone else for job. So if you liked it sooooo darn much than why not CHOOSE ME!! So this yes causes me to do the emotional eating which than feel guilty about later on. I don't have a lot of unemployment left and it is scaring the crap out of me..maybe until May or June if that. I have a LD(Learning disabilities) and so that makes it kind of harder in a way but not always so. I never thought I would be part of the unemployed that would be waiting this long. Unemployed since last October and it sucks. So yes right now it is hard to say no when FOOD has always been my comfort and fresh foods are so much more to spend on. I am also on a food card and OH lucky me they only give me $16 a month to live on...oh really not helping. I am not one to smooch off of any one but I need the help!!!! Yes I am stressed. I won't allow myself to drop off the deep end and gain more weight that is why I am glad for this site because there is so much support and great tools.
I will stop babbling now just a lot on my mind.