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A little exercise, a lot of stress

Friday, February 22, 2013

Today started out pretty well; I went to kickboxing yesterday (kicked my BUTT!) and I was still riding the high from that. Of course, though, my husband had to screw it all up by sneaking alcohol in the house.

I didn't play his game. I wasn't about to sit down and "talk it out." I wasn't in the mood. Sometimes, all the apologies in the world aren't enough. I've heard it a dozen times before. What makes it different this time?

He's supposed to start a 90 day outpatient program Monday. I hope that helps, or I'm going to drop him off at his mother's house and let her deal with it until he can sober up.

Anyway, tonight I decided that rather than descend into the pits of despair and pity party myself into a binge, I went for a walk. The weather's a bit inclement, but I JUST went and bought a new raincoat, so why not? It wasn't heavy rain, just a bit misty.

So I ended up walking almost 4 freakin' miles. I'm actually kinda sore! That's a good thing. I like being sore, believe it or not.

I've also been trying to drink more water when I start getting the munchies. YOu see, we often mistake hunger for thirst, and I know especially in the evening I tend to stop drinking as much and get thirsty. It worked for staving off the late-night munchies last night.

So I'm not going to let the stress get me down. I can't be responsible for my husband's actions. They're not my fault! So I have to take responsibility for me. :)

Easy does it.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BUBBLEJ1 2/24/2013 4:48AM

    I'm happy that you are taking care of you. You deserve every happiness and success!

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CLARK971 2/23/2013 3:36PM

    I can't be responsible for my husband's actions. They're not my fault! So I have to take responsibility for me. :) " you are absolutely right!

hang in there!

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JADOMB 2/23/2013 12:56PM

    My prayers continue to go your way.

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KJMATLAK 2/23/2013 10:27AM

  Remember that a lot of times, when someone is trying to give up drugs or alcohol it's a lot like loosing a close friend. Their is a grieving process and there are slip ups. I know it's hard to be the family member, but have faith and patience. I'm glad to hear he is starting an outpatient program. I hope he is still going to meetings as well, does he have a sponsor yet?

Hugs to you girl for knowing when to go walk it off... that's shows a lot of growth on your part! This is going to be a battle of ups and downs friend, just know you can come here when you need support and you have people who are going to help you get past it. Stay strong. emoticon

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BILL60 2/23/2013 9:07AM

    Way to go, but you have to go through with the threat. He's gonna test you. Hang tough!!

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OBIESMOM2 2/23/2013 8:52AM

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MERRY_XMAS 2/23/2013 6:54AM

    I hope he will be able to understand how much he affects your family with his behavior.
Sneaking alcohol is not a good indicator of how determined he is to succeed...

I hope you will not take it as a bad thing but most people in this site are kind of addicts (including myself). We are addicted to food. We try our best to improve ourselves and what this site and this community is all about.

I hope your husband will be able to find his sparkle and fight his own addiction...
Until then, stay true to your goals because you need to be healthy and strong! We are there to offer love and advice but only to people who appreciate it! If they don't, they are responsible for their fate.


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1STATEOFDENIAL 2/22/2013 11:27PM

    We can never change those around us, no matter how hard we try; we can only change how we react to others' choices. You definitely need to take care of yourself right now, as your daughters can only depend on you right now to take care of them, while your husband faces his issues. It is possible that nothing you do will help him right now, so it makes sense to put your effort where it will be effective.

I wish you strength through this time. I'm certain it will be difficult and test you in many ways, but I think your journey to better health will be helpful.

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SHANECODER 2/22/2013 10:41PM

    Sorry, that must be difficult!!

emoticon using exercise to relieve the stress! I love hiking in the rain. I imagine a walk is similar. 4 miles is awesome!

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