Friday, February 22, 2013
The above picture was posted on a friend’s facebook wall this morning, and it helped me to realize that I do need to release myself from a relationship that was becoming too stressful and full of drama.
I fell hard and fast for man, who seemed like the closest I have ever come to a soul mate. We could talk for hours about anything and everything, and when we together there was electricity as well as a relaxing comfort. We discussed a future together and I was so happy. And then…..REALITY!!!
It soon became evident that his life is full of drama – from the ex-wife, family issues, job related re-location possibilities, post-traumatic stress disorder from time spent in a war, upcoming surgery…. Now I am not one to run from stress or pressure but when I was pushed aside, I was hurt. When I am in a relationship, I stand by partner and help him through the difficulties in life, and expect the same in return. I was told that I would know where our relationship was headed when he settled issues and made decisions, and that my opinions and wants pretty much were not a part of the equation at this time. I asked for the opportunity to sit down and discuss face-to-face everything that had transpired, and was told that I would have to wait until a time that he couldn’t determine yet. It was then that I knew I would always be pushed aside and would never be of the importance that any person deserves to be when in a relationship. The decision to walk away was difficult and painful, but it was something I had to do for myself. I deserve a partnership and not a dictatorship. As one friend put it, this man seems to thrive on drama while at the same time wants to be in control and make all the decisions. There are women who are capable of letting the man be in charge all the time. This girl is definitely not one of those women. I want to walk side-by-side with a man and take on the world together.
By the way, I am not giving up – I know love is out there for me.
I want to take this opportunity to thank my amazing Spark Friends for being here for me, encouraging me, giving me shoulders to cry on and accepting me for me. You are the best!
Today Mother Nature gave me another reason to take the camera out of its bag. Below are a few shots!
Have a great weekend Sparklers!