Friday, February 22, 2013
I recently have been I guess blessed-to been able to have some wonderful "fat positive" conversations with a new friend and it inspired me to write my human behavior in the social environment paper on how our views of body shape has changed. Something intrigues me how we as society went from respecting and looking up to fat women to treating us like we are dirty, unhealthy and lazy. This is really going to be one very soul bearing paper which is what my teacher wants-she wants us to put ourselves into the paper.
Okay so maybe that's typical coming from a fat chick (Fat isn't a bad word, and we should stop treating it as such by the way) and I'm a little worried I just fed into some sort of F'd up stereotype but oh well screw em. We had to discuss our topics in class briefly and it got some really powerful conversations going. I am the largest person in my class and the four other women that I was talking to were all various sizes. One of them being someone that before she had her six (I know six!) kids she was a skinny woman that could eat anything she wanted and gain nothing and now can't loose the weight. It was interesting and really, really started me thinking.
Part of this paper is going to be not only soul bearing, but also a little bit theraputic as well. I have had a horrible time accepting my fatness (I apologize to anyone offended by that word but it's going to become my new happy word so I guess get used to it.) I have friends that are large and just ooze confidence and I envy them so much. I know I care a whole lot about what everyone else thinks about me and what they feel I should look like. I want to find a way to fully realize that if they cannot accept my fatness then I guess it's their problem-not mine. I have to admit I am a little scared to be this bare about a topic so close to home. I guess in a way its the chipping away at that final layer that I've used to protect me from people.
SO in closing this before I have to jet to work-there was a point for me posting this on here. I HATE writing thesis statements-i kinda suck at them but this is what i came up with and if anyone has some suggestions mention on-I don't normally ask for help with writing anything college related but in this case I figured why not ask a community filled with beautiful people that can understand where this is coming from.
"We live in a society where thin is in and the concept of a being a beautiful, shapely-fat woman has ceased to be a positive ideal. At what point did we loose the respect for curves and become obsessed with a body shape that for some is unrealistic creates low self esteem in women of all ages and completely throws to the side any notion that a big woman can be a beautiful woman."
So any thoughts?