Friday, February 22, 2013
This start is about ten years in the making. I have struggled with my weight since my senior year in high school. It became out of control in college and spiraled down hill ever since. I would always say that I did not care that I was fat and that I was happy. That was a bunch of crap and a big lie to myself and others. I would eat to make myself feel better, to reward myself for an accomplishment, to full fill something that was missing. Food became the center of my life. I was always thinking about eating and what my next meal or snack would be. Life was a mess! This past December, I reached my breaking point. I was 255lbs, always tired, unhappy with myself and where my life was going. It was a struggle just to get through the day. On December 29, 2012, I told myself that this was it. I was no longer going to sit by and watch my life pass me by. I was finally going to do something for myself. I was going to get healthy. I started with cutting out carbs. I was and still am not very good at cutting out the carbs, but I have significantly decreased the amount I eat every day. I started with cutting out any carbs that I might consume by drinking. I have stuck to plain water, unsweetened hot and iced tea and coffee with almond milk. Then, I moved to cutting out other carbs. I added more veggies and fruit. Yes, I know fruit has carbs, but the good kind. My self talk consisted of "I am not going to deprive myself of something I really want." I would just pick a cheat day and eat that one thing I had been craving. Then I would get back on track the next day. Since December 29, 2012, I have increased my energy level and I have lost 13lbs and 11 inches. I am far from my goal weight of 150lbs, but I am much further than before. I am also motivated to keep going. This is the first time I have stuck to a "diet" or way of eating. For the first time, I am thinking about myself and going for the goal!! I am lucky to have a partner in this weight loss/get healthy journey, my mom. She motivates me everyday and is the support I need to stay on track! Thanks a bunch MOM!