Friday, February 22, 2013
Dropped a pound this week.
However I can't say I have been really trying. I have actually been feeling disillusioned the past few days.
Last weekend was great. I got to spend some extra time with the grandson which I am grateful for but than things turned South with the daughter's phone call for what first appeared to be a truce but her subsequent request for $$$ support the very next day ultimately showed what she was truly after which DH gladly gave her. I ended up feeling used, let down and unsupported. Nothing new about that but I guess I allowed myself a small glimmer of hope which proved not to be the case.
By mid week I had been given the news from my doctor that my Blood Pressure is still very much running high even with 3 medications which is making me feel less than optimistic that I will ever be able to get it down far enough that it won't continue to do more damage. It's been running high with medications for 2 years now for apparently no reason other than stress and anxiety. And somehow someway I am suppose to learn how I to calm down and relax with absolutely no further medical or theraputic support. Haven't figured out how I am to pull that trick out of my hat yet. Have just 2 months until my next evaluation and lab work appt. I seriously need to find a solution that really works for lessening stress and anxiety. Feeling like I have been set adrift.