So I got asked out tonight. Sort of. And I can't decide if I actually want to go.

See I had joined that Meetup.com figuring I could use it to meet new people, get out of my rut, expand my horizons, and start enjoying life. If you're not familiar with the site it's where people can post and plan meetups for people with something or other in common so people can just meet new people, make new friends, get out and do things. There's a lot of lonely people in this world!

Anyway, some guy saw me join a group the other day and left a note saying 'welcome to the group'. So I wrote back 'thank you' and thought nothing more of it. It's like SP a bit in that total strangers just say hello. Anyway, then this evening I get an email from him saying he was reading my profile (and keep in mind, this is a generic profile - NOT a dating profile - it says things like these are my interests, I'm looking for new friends to do xyz etc.) anyway he thought we had some things in common. He noticed that I was also a member of a singles meetup group (this group we 'met' in was just a generic group for our city) and he was wondering if I wanted to just meet for coffee. If I felt it was too forward then no worries but he likes to act on things when they come across to him.

So at first I was thinking wtf, this guy is a whack job, he knows nothing about me and has only seen one picture from the shoulders up which is all that's on there. Then I was thinking but then again, you could meet someone in a grocery store lineup with about the same amount of information and it wouldn't seem as strange for them to ask you for coffee.

I mean, I joined this site to meet people and hopefully to get me out doing things and interacting with people and maybe meet some men. I haven't dated in years - mostly to do with dealing with my depression. I didn't think I had anything to bring to the table but the more time I spent alone, the more depressed I got and well, it's a vicious cycle. Just joining this meetup was a big step. I haven't actually GONE to any of the meetups yet! I haven't had the courage!

And now this person, who may or may not be completely insane, but let's pretend he's normal wants to have coffee. And where does my brain go? Well if I agreed what happens if he shows up and thinks 'whoa, she's way bigger than I thought from the photo' or he sort of likes me but then we spend some time together and he realizes how terribly out of shape I am that he doesn't like me or gasp god forbid I just wanna get some action but can't do it because I'm too sensitive about my body. Now see here folks - see how far I took that with one request for coffee? It's a terrible habit of mine - trying to decide from a photo and the answer to 5 simple questions whether I can see myself dating this person. HAHA. And you think he's crazy? I need to look under my own hood I guess.

Besides - what if I DO meet him for coffee and he's a freak or not attractive or just boring? I mean - the idea that he's 10 years older than me weirds me out already!

But then again - it's just a freakin cup of coffee and a conversation. He's not getting down on one knee with a rock in his hand now is he?

I'm so neurotic. What should I do?