Thursday, February 21, 2013
It's been a stressful time lately. I've blogged about the problems with my dog. He's holding his own and still leading a quality life, but at night he is often very restless and that means no one sleeps. No sleep means I'm pretty loopy the next day and and struggle to do my best at work. It can be tough. On top of that, I'm temporarily sidelined from doing what gives me the most stress relief -- running. Recently I've been experiencing some pretty bad pain in my left hip, so I finally decided to see a sports medicine doctor and was diagnosed with hip bursitis. I'm not supposed to run or walk for exercise, but I am able to work out as long as I stick with low impact exercises. For now I seem to do best with the exercise bike, even though I must say it's pretty boring! Since I can't work on increasing my running speed and distance the way I'd like right now, I am putting more attention on losing weight. I hope that between riding the bike, losing weight, and building strength by working with free weights, I'll be ready for my first 5K of the year in April, despite not be able to follow a traditional training plan. In the back of my mind I have some fear that this condition won't clear up, or that it will come back when I start running again, and my running career will be over almost sooner than it began, but I push these fears back and refuse to even go there. I know there are people who have suffered more serious setbacks than this who were able to come back stronger than ever, so I feel there's no reason not to stay positive. I'm sad to say there are some around me who would like to believe that this is a sign I shouldn't be running, and who say things that aren't exactly encouraging. I can see, though, that their words prove that misery loves company. Just because they have given up on fitness and exercise doesn't mean I have to just so they can justify a sedentary way of life. For a change I find I'm not letting this kind of negativity bring me down. I'm going to use these negative words as fuel to motivate me to prove them wrong. I plan to run again, and to keep running. I may be down, but I'm not out. There are things in my life right now that I can't control, so I'm embracing those things I can control, such as my eating, and how I react to the challenges I'm facing right now. OK, I'm rambling now, but you get the point. We just can never, ever give up.