Thursday, February 21, 2013
Finding Stability in an EVER CHANGING world!
How does one do it? How does one keep their head above the waters when the tidal waves start coming in.
Life will always change - no matter what you believe - the only thing that does NOT CHANGE - is CHANGE!
I remember hearing that when I was 14 years old and I HATED IT!!! At 40 I can't say I like it any better.
Friday - I found out my "pay" was being cut back due to the increase of Health Insurance premiums. GRRRR
Wed - I found out I get a LARGE REFUND - due to all the money the docs took from me the year before - YEAH!!!
Do I let those emotions CONTROL ME?
Do I allow those FLUXING emotions CONTROL WHAT I EAT?
Do I allow the TURMOIL of LIFE to CONTROL WHETHER I WORK OUT?
Sometimes it's EASIER to say NO to that CHOCOLATE! Sometimes it's easier to GO FOR THAT WALK...why? Because you feel on TOP OF THE WORLD and you KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!
Sometimes...it's almost impossible not to buy a large bag of oreos and eat them all in one sitting. Sometimes...it's almost impossible to do anything BUT SIT on the COUCH and bury yourself in the "next" thing that comes on - rather than getting up and doing a DOZEN things that NEED TO BE DONE: IE: Dishes, laundry, Cooking, EXERCISING!
So I ask myself. Do I EAT and WORKOUT based on HOW I FEEL!!!????
I hope the answer is NO....because ever since my surgeries...HOW I FEEL Is UP AND DOWN...I feel like I live on a ROLLER COASTER!!! Praise GOD - I know HE is with me ..and will help me NAVIGATE the UPS and DOWNS....I think the DARK CAVES we zip into are the scariest..."WHEN WE WILL SEE THE LIGHT AGAIN"???
It is the UNKNOWN that scares me the most. I am a PLANNER...I like things NICE AND NEAT and ORGANIZED..and when my plans go asunder...it sends SHOCK WAVES through my system!!
I need to find a way to "obtain" a "FLASHLIGHT"...even a small one...so that when LIFE throws me into the DARK I will be able to SHINE at least a small amount of light into the blackness. Even a small light (May not show me what's next)..but will give me hope that SOMETHING ELSE - GOOD IS COMING!
I guess...as I write that....I can only help but to think of PSALMS....Psalms is a book mixed with "EMOTION"...GOOD, BAD, EXUBERANT, HORRIFIC!! But THEIR ANSWER...GOD KNOWS....HE KNOWS the CURVES come before they come. HE KNOWS the DARKNESS IS WAITING before the lights go out. HE WILL SUSTAIN ME THROUGH THEM...if I remember HE IS WITH ME!! Because He is with me whether I remember that or not....Just helps to know I"M NOT SITTING IN THE DARK ALONE!
So..in this UNSTABLE world that we live in. With an unstable Economy - I have to remember who OWNS A THOUSAND SHEEP and WHO FEEDS THE LILIES OF THE FIELD!!!
HE WILL WATCH OVER ME TOO!!!
So instead of GRABBING THOSE OREOS (can you Tell I love OREOS)!! Instead - I should grab for the WORD and READ SOME PSALMS!!!!