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New life - for what it's worth - I am taking my first steps toward you

Thursday, February 21, 2013

I took a major tumble in December. My only child, my son, died on December 7th. He had epilepsy and a seizure took his precious life from me at 23. I was doing so good on changing my health so that I could be here for the grandkids I would have one day. For a long life with my family filled with energy. I stopped caring about just about everything in life for a few months and after the first couple of weeks of not being able to eat at all; I turned to eating everything bad for me without thought whatsoever. I also injured myself and have been unable to work out in the manner I had been (intensely 5 days a week). I am trying to cope day by day with this loss and know Bryce would want me to be healthy as well as happy. I don't know how I am going to do this but, I do know that I am going to start with getting support here at SP to help get me back on track with my weightloss and exercise. My husband and I have started a team to do the Epilepsy NW 5k Run/Walk in June and are getting great support from friends and friends of friends who will be doing the run with us! Now I have a target that is not going to go away and I have to get out and run again!! And I am committing to logging my food and being honest with myself about what and why I am eating. I won an Aria wifi scale and fitbit which I have connected to SP and will not be able to fudge or fool myself that way either.

OK - New Life - I don't think this journey to find out what you are going to be like will be easy but I know I want it to be healthy and that means I have to go back to losing weight instead of gaining it and exercise which will help me cope with you.

Baby steps....
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    Thank you all for your kindness and support!! It means so much. Banker Chuck - if the run turns out to be something you can get on your schedule please let me know. I would love to have you join our team and we can meet.

    1753 days ago
    Wow. I did not know epilepsy was life-threatening. That is a sad blow to you and your family. It is great that you are determined to get as fit and healthy as possible and it sounds like you have selected some useful tools to make it happen. I wish you good luck with your goals. I am heartsick for your loss though.
    1758 days ago
    So sorry to hear about your loss of your son. Glad you are getting back on track for your health benefit. I will put the Run on my calendar and see if I can switch a commitment I have already made. Maybe we will cross paths on a Run event or motorcycle event someday. Good luck to you and your goals.
    1758 days ago
    My heart breaks for you at your loss.I lost my first child - stillborn, cord accident. It doesn't matter how long they're with you - that's your child, and you love.“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne?" (Is. 49:15).
    I wanted to have LOTS of children, but because I had to have C-sections, I ended with 3, not counting the first. But I have "adopted" many - not officially, but there are plenty of young folks out there who need a motherly person in their lives. Let that love rise up and share it. You'll find your joy restored. I pray for blessing and wholeness on your journey to a healthy lifestyle.
    1758 days ago
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