New life - for what it's worth - I am taking my first steps toward you
Thursday, February 21, 2013
I took a major tumble in December. My only child, my son, died on December 7th. He had epilepsy and a seizure took his precious life from me at 23. I was doing so good on changing my health so that I could be here for the grandkids I would have one day. For a long life with my family filled with energy. I stopped caring about just about everything in life for a few months and after the first couple of weeks of not being able to eat at all; I turned to eating everything bad for me without thought whatsoever. I also injured myself and have been unable to work out in the manner I had been (intensely 5 days a week). I am trying to cope day by day with this loss and know Bryce would want me to be healthy as well as happy. I don't know how I am going to do this but, I do know that I am going to start with getting support here at SP to help get me back on track with my weightloss and exercise. My husband and I have started a team to do the Epilepsy NW 5k Run/Walk in June and are getting great support from friends and friends of friends who will be doing the run with us! Now I have a target that is not going to go away and I have to get out and run again!! And I am committing to logging my food and being honest with myself about what and why I am eating. I won an Aria wifi scale and fitbit which I have connected to SP and will not be able to fudge or fool myself that way either.
OK - New Life - I don't think this journey to find out what you are going to be like will be easy but I know I want it to be healthy and that means I have to go back to losing weight instead of gaining it and exercise which will help me cope with you.