honoring my commitment
Thursday, February 21, 2013
It has now been more than a month since I really committed myself to getting my weight and happiness under control. I have have been exercising (cardio) 5-7 days/week and have not gone to the top of my calorie allotment once! I have lost between 11 and 14 pounds (not sure exactly since I weigh tomorrow officially). In all the years that I have yoyo'ed up and down the scale...some with Sparkpeople and some in other ways...I have always had "bad days" upon occasion. In addition, I have allowed things to get me off track...injuries, illness, whatever the excuse of the day might be. But, now....one month in...I feel truly strong and committed to what I am doing. I have been putting ME first instead of others. My family wants to go out to dinner? I am picking the place, not them. It will ONLY be where I feel I can get an enjoyable meal without going over on my calories. I refuse to skip workouts. If my schedule means I can't go at my normal time (which happens seldomly), I will go at another time. But, I WILL GO. This week has been a challenge in my own mind. I have come down with a terrible chest cold. Might be Bronchitis, not sure. But, I made the sickest day my one day off of the week and have gone and worked out while feeling like crap. Some may say I should have stayed home and rested....but I refuse to let all my hard work be in vain. And, I feel better about myself for exercising despite a heavy chest...I got through it o.k., and I will again. I truly believe this time is for good. Because, I am honoring my commitment to myself. I want to be happy, I want to be comfortable, and I want to do activities that don't align with obesity.