Thursday, February 21, 2013
Tuesday I believe Mercury went into retrograde. Our family found out that my husband's position at the garden that was to start next week is most likely excised. Then we got a call that my job working on a renovation of a public building here on the electrician crew that has been delayed from February 1st is actually pretty much cancelled. Regulations on salary and other red tape pretty much prevent any type of casual apprenticeships so the 6 of us are just SOL. So we went from thinking we would be bringing home 600 or so from my hubs and 1200 or so from me to just the 120 a month he gets now as a stipend from a grant for a project he is working on. We are both very active in our community, sitting on boards of non profits and involved with unions and community groups working for change. We are a busy family but it kinda sucks to have had our hopes up about not being so broke and then lose that chance. Anyways, we are truly grateful for our health. That same day, Tues, a good friend of ours ended up in the hospital with severe pneumonia. She has been living in a yurt this winter since her house burned down last summer just weeks after her insurance company cancelled her policy due to improperly aligned gutters. Ugh, sometimes life seems so unfair. But I am going to try and get a team of people together here to have workdays and start helping her rebuild bit by bit once the frost is gone. We also found out our other good friend and colleague was in a terrible car accident and has injuries to her legs so severe she will have to relearn to walk. So in perspective, we are grateful for our health and family. Sometimes i get overwhelmed with stress knowing how unlikely it is we will ever escape poverty. I feel so guilty when my children can't do things their classmates do. I feel angry at the system when I see so many good hard-working people who are failing economically. But i know we are a good, loving family and things like this remind me to find my gratitude amidst it all. We work with alot of wonderful people in our many volunteer endeavors and I am grateful for them too. And I am very grateful for my husband who never judges me when i turn to chocolate and cheese in times of stress, who tells me i am beautiful when i feel anything but and who, unlike me, never loses hope while fighting this system of injustice.