I haven't been here in quite some time...I'd say at least 9 months. I've been so busy with self-loathing, self-pity, anger, depression, and sadness that I've put myself right into the box I fought so hard to get out of a few years ago. Weight loss-ZERO!! I've ate how I wanted without regard for my waistline or my health. I dont know how to get out of the box...I feel the lid closing in around me. I'm looking for that easy fix...that miracle...and inside, I know that those things dont exist. But I'm still looking...searching. I opened the box a little this past week. Trying to make healthier choices in eating. I know its one step at a time...one baby step at a time...one minute at a time. Slowly...