Thursday, February 21, 2013
Yeah, I'm just going to jump in like I haven't been gone for a while. I'm an inconsistent Sparker. I'm just going to accept it. I just can't always make it here, though I'd like. I'm always thinking of you guys though! :)
So my latest thing is that I got a Fitbit, which is a nifty little device that tracks activity. It clips on (I have the zip, the lower end version) and tracks my steps and calories burned). I can then sync that device to both an app on my iPhone and my computer. And THEN I feed it into the app I have been using for years now to track things - Myfitnesspal and MFP makes an automatic adjustment based upon my daily activity as measured by Fitbit. Wow. That is a LOT of gadgetry going on! I don't know how much it will help but it's been cool to watch. The main improvement is anything a simple pedometer could have told me - how many steps/day I'm NOT taking. It shows my progress on a progress bar of the recommended 10,000 steps. I have a desk job. In the few days of having it, I am still not hitting that 10,000 steps even with running a few miles at night. That means I'm doing nothing during the day and my only movement comes from my runs. I mean I knew that, but I'm seeing it for real in numbers that it's not enough.
So I'm working on the little things. Which seems kind of funny. I ran a marathon. Now I'm learning to stand up more. Beginner steps. Everyone needs them I guess. We moved offices just before Christmas break and one thing my boss, who is health conscious, insisted be installed in our department's desks, are keyboard trays that can rise to a standing position. So yesterday I stood at work for two hours. I don't know how much this will work long-term. Our desks are not optimized for this. My computer and desk are still lower so I was looking down while typing, and I felt it after two hours. Not to mention my feet hurt after two hours of standing in dress shoes. But I can probably handle two hours a day, more on Fridays when I can dress causally. And incorporating more steps into the day too. My boss, I should mention, stands while she works more than she sits. I rarely see her sit at her desk.
So far, it has been an interesting and good year for me. Very different from previous years. I'm learning to take a new approach. I'm very much an introvert and I think one trait of introverts is that they love periods of deep focus. They love to just nurture an aspect of their lives or a project. Think deeply about it. Obsess, even. Maybe that's not an introvert thing, maybe that's just me. But I recently realized I've come to the point where I've grown parts of my life to a certain point and I did it by focusing solely on each part and shutting out the other parts while I did it.
I started 2013 by getting a promotion. It was MUCH needed. I really couldn't have gone on much longer without it. I realized this in early 2012 so I started the process of focusing on it. I shut a lot of things down to achieve it. I worked nights and weekends. I sent my daughter to my parent's house. I let the healthy habits go. I had a lot of other things going on in 2012, of course, but career was a main focus. And it paid off.
2011 was the year of the marathon and weight loss.
2010 was the year of separating from my husband and finding myself and focusing in on all of that.
So here I am in 2013 and I've come to this realization that it all has to come together. I can't shut off one part of my life to work on another. And it's really hard for me! I love that. I love to get so deep in a project and so obsessed with it that I live and breathe it. But I'm learning to balance. And I've noticed that the ones who balance and who do moderation are the ones who are the most successful at weight loss. So I hope it works out for me too. It's been hard not to run that extra mile or two when I have a good run going, but I do. Because I have other obligations. Or not to work late. But I do stop, because I have family obligations. It's just all got to come together.
So, I ditched my big plans of a marathon for my 30th birthday. I was really sad to let that go. But I don't feel like I can take on a "big" project right now and still learn balance. I am, however, going to Vegas with some friends for my 30th! And we will do a shorter race while there.