Thursday, February 21, 2013
Today I am really struggling with why it is so hard to lose weight and so easy to gain. It feels as if I have one slip up I will gain back what I lost and then I start over. I know this is a lifestyle change I am doing and wanting to do. I want to feel better(emotionally). I want to put on my jeans and feel great ( which I had started to do prior to the holidays) but now I am back to being miserable. Nothing to wear and I refuse to buy larger clothing. So instead of staying down I am going to focus on the positive and see how I can put my self back on the right track. I feel stronger during my workouts and family life has gotten better since I started to eat "normal" again. Maybe look--no definitely look into why I want to eat at night what comfort am I missing--there is something missing--because I should not want to eat --I had ate plenty of food. --re evaluate my food I eat t--and get way more water in. I can do this I want to d this and most importantly I want to do it for me--No one else seems to care how I look they like me for me so this is for me--lose the weight and take my child to a rip course he would love and i would feel more comfortable doing it being smaller--this time next year I want to be planning a great outing for my family and not having my self consciousness due to being over weight get in the way. I really believe I can do this and that is my first Great step!