Thursday, February 21, 2013
"Ring the bells that still can ring
Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything
That's how the light gets in."
Leonard Cohen, Anthem
Letting light in where I am cracked or broken or imperfect and seeing this as an asset. There is a concept that is sometimes hard to embrace. I think it comes down to trusting that there is a gift waiting for me as a result of this struggle with food, and from all of life's struggles. Geneen Roth and Renee Stephens both talk about this a lot.
This morning I read the Martha Beck article in O about a similar concept. She calls life's bumps or imperfections or crises "rumble strips" and she suggests that we should be grateful for them, as they can lead us into "the light" if we let them. I include a link to the article below.
Well, my life has been in a rumble strip for a few months and I'm really trying to see the light in it all. Some days are easier than others.
But tied to this idea is the notion that we have to enjoy the journey along the way and find ways to feel good now, in order to feel good later. Last night I binged and then I had a rough time with my husband and I went to bed feeling badly, both physically and emotionally. I woke several times in the night with a sense of dread. The third time I reminded myself that I can change my thinking, that I can feel good right now just because. So I did just that. I took some deep breaths, remembered what was great about my life, even if I had binged and had a conflict, and went to sleep with a little more peace.
Let's all let in the light.