Just realized it has been well over a year since I posted to this blog. It doesn't seem possible but... Tuesday was my 48th birthday and I told myself I needed to come here to write something. Uh, yeah, that didn't happen, then I told myself yesterday I needed to get here. Well....
The birthday went well though. And I do not have a problem being a year older. I'm just happy to still be around to have birthdays. So, I sat down to evaluate my life.
I've been on Sparkpeople since 2008 and have gone up and down with those same 10 lbs since that time. This bugs me because in the five years before then I had managed to go from 219 lbs to 185 lbs without support, tracking or any APPARENT effort. I almost feel like since I'm beng more careful to track and countercheck myself I'm waiting for someone to yell at me that I'm doing this wrong. So, I know it's time to recommit once again.
Before all of this self evaluation I started at the gym. Today marks one month of steady attendance. Monday and Thursday I do 30 minutes of aerobic exercise, abs and legs. Tuesday and Friday it's aerobic, abs and arms. Wednesday is 60 minutes of aerobic activity. I"m nanny to a handcapped child on weekends so I can't get to the gym but the mom has a stationery bike (which she has never sat on) that I use for 60 minutes throughout each day and I've invested in Zumba and bellydancing (which I've always wanted to learn) cd's to take with me. I also thought if I enjoyed them I could make it a second workout each day. My jump rope, which I bought three years ago and never opened has also been put to use. Now, if I can commit to this why can't I get my eating under control? My blood sugars are doing great so I don't understand why if I can eat to control my diabetes why can't I eat to control my weight.
A cousin recently lost 45 lbs and "cured" her diabetes. Since I'm type 1 I know I can't be cured but it would sure be a big help in control. Why can't I seem to do it when I did it before?