Thursday, February 21, 2013
I feel fat. I had lost 20 pounds and now I've gained back about 6-8 of them depending on the day. I've still lost 12-14 pounds and I should focus on that. But I just feel fat and dumpy and gross. I'm still wearing my smaller pants and I know right at this particular moment I've got PMS-related bloating and whatnot. But still, I can't shake the negative talk happening in my head.
I'm leaving for vacation on Saturday. I really REALLY wanted the scale to be in the 60s when I left - that'd be at least 15 pounds lost. Instead, this morning the scale was up. Screw you, scale.
I'm going to the gym, I'm eating fairly well ... I know my body takes awhile to start cooperating, but I think I should've reached that point by now.
Siiigh. I have no point, I'm just venting. Don't mind me. :)