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Shut Up, Inner Monologue!

Thursday, February 21, 2013

I feel fat. I had lost 20 pounds and now I've gained back about 6-8 of them depending on the day. I've still lost 12-14 pounds and I should focus on that. But I just feel fat and dumpy and gross. I'm still wearing my smaller pants and I know right at this particular moment I've got PMS-related bloating and whatnot. But still, I can't shake the negative talk happening in my head.

I'm leaving for vacation on Saturday. I really REALLY wanted the scale to be in the 60s when I left - that'd be at least 15 pounds lost. Instead, this morning the scale was up. Screw you, scale.

I'm going to the gym, I'm eating fairly well ... I know my body takes awhile to start cooperating, but I think I should've reached that point by now.

Siiigh. I have no point, I'm just venting. Don't mind me. :)
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    When I have fat days, I drink tons of water. It usually helps me feel better... I imagine it flushing out all the lumps and bumps.

    The scale sucks.
    1855 days ago
    Don't always think you can only measure your success by a number on that scale. While it is a useful measurement - it doesn't measure how much water your body retains during that time of the month (my old trainer used to say it can fluctuate between 5-10 pounds). It also doesn't differentiate between muscle gained and fat. I understand your frustration - but expecting success and perfection every time is an easy way to sabotage the success you have already made.

    You can do this - don't let that scale get you down!

    1856 days ago
    I'm with you - except instead of gaining back 6-8, I gained back all I'd lost, plus some extra. It's frustrating, and it makes me feel like a colossal failure. But hey - it's not going to get better if we quit trying, right?

    I hope that your day improves, and that you have a great time on your vacation!

    1856 days ago
    Do NOT give in to those inner feelings. You have done great and the gain is just a small setback. The smaller clothes are reminding you that you are still in a place of having made progress. Rely on that and pick up with where you are now. You already know you can do it! You got this! emoticon emoticon
    1856 days ago
    it can be so frustrating when we don't see the results we want... you're definitely allowed to vent. :) But like others have said, good for you for how far you've already come. To me slow progress has always signified lasting changes, too!
    1856 days ago
    1856 days ago
    12-14 pounds is still awesome. Remember this is a journey, not a race! Your body will start cooperating soon. (And mine will too! LOL I'm in the same predicament!)
    1856 days ago
    Sorry you are struggling today. We all have those days, lady. Just remember how far you've come and focus on your successes! It is so easy to let the negatives bring us down some days, but just try and push through it. Take a look at your progress pictures! The proof is there. Hugs! We all need to vent sometimes, but just take a step back and look at all your successes. You can do this! :)
    1856 days ago
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