Thursday, February 21, 2013
The other night I had a dream I was pregnant and gave birth to a baby boy.
I've had these dreams before and they're pretty common for women. I'm not 100% certain I want children, but this night it seemed like the dream was trying to tell me something. I Googled some dream analysis and found that having a pregnancy dream could mean you're craving to nurture something, not necessarily a being, but you're wanting to do something creative.
Right now I'm still working in retail, at the job I got my last semester of college. I have worked there since September and graduated in December. The part-time job was something fine at the time, because it paid a bit more than other retail jobs I've had in the past, it pays the bills, and works around my school schedule. Now that I've graduated I am having a hard time finding full-time work anywhere.
The job I have is literally the same thing day in and day out. It's very monotonous and it's not challenging at all. I find myself getting depressed because of this. I look around at my co-workers and I can tell they feel the same way. No one's happy, there's lots of drama between people, and everyone complains constantly. This is not a great atmosphere to work.
I think my dream was telling me I need to get into something creative and challenging. I need to work for something. Ever since I graduated, I'm not working hard toward a certain goal (graduating, getting great grades, etc.)
I have been focusing on losing weight, but I don't think I'm giving it my 100%. I think with losing weight, I need to focus on some tasks or hobby that I can find great pleasure from. Don't get me wrong, I am not giving up on losing weight, I just don't want my whole life to be surrounded by it because it could lead to obsession. I want my healthy lifestyle to be a lifestyle, and not an obsession, if that makes any sense.
After seeing a few people posting a "Bucket List" so to speak, I think it's a great idea for me to be working on living these experiences as well as something to look forward to, and to feel more fulfilled. Here are just a couple of things I'd like to do in the next 5 years. I'll add more things on as I come up with more ideas.
1. Learn a new musical instrument.
2. Build and maintain a garden.
3. Learn another language (either by taking a course for fun, or learning on my own.
4. Go to a foreign country overseas.
5. Finish a 5k.
6. Finish a half marathon.
7. Lose 50 pounds
8. Lose 100 pounds
9. Get to a healthy BMI.
10. Become a regular volunteer with animal rescue.
11. Go on a second honeymoon.
12. Learn to dance.
13. Earn my Master's degree.
14. Return to New York for a long visit.
15. Go camping.
16. Meet up with some of my childhood friends.
I will add on more when I think of more ideas.