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What am I Tired Of??

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Excuses. Negative talk. Beating myself up. Setting myself up for failure. Those are the things I am tired of!
Thanks to everyone who commented on my last blog and gave me some insight and thoughts.
I've been thinking and planning. I don't CARE how much weight I lose before I get to go on vacation. BUT -- that does not give me permission to slack off and forget what my goals are. I sat down with a clean notebook and made entries for each day, with my goals for the day, such as how many steps I wanted to log, what that day's exercise would be, spaces to check off my water, the exercise, whether or not I had soda (which my goal is to NOT), and a place to write down my thoughts once the day is done.
I decided that when I reach a 20 pound loss, I will get myself a new outfit. 30 pounds loss will get a new hair-do. I have not decided 40 and 50 yet. I will reach my goal weight, and actually I don't know what that number is going to be. I have a rough idea in my head, but I'm not going to pin my hopes on a specific number. When I'm happy with my weight and how I look and am in a HEALTHY range, I'll know where to stop. THAT will be my magic number. THAT prize I do have to think about. Of course new clothes will be in order, but that's kind of a given. You can't lose that many pounds without needing something new to wear.
Looking at my notebook today I am incredibly happy. I had a good day. There were some flaws, but I don't really need perfection. Asking for perfection of myself is how I set myself up for failure. I reached my goal for steps, I also reached my goal for exercise, water, no soda, and tracked all my food and stayed within my nutrition ranges for the day. I did not climb the number of stairs I had written in. I did not eat breakfast this morning.
I still feel incredibly proud of the efforts I made today and the successes that I had. I went to the grocery store without my list. That could have been a disaster. It wasn't. I wanted something sweet. I wanted something like a gooey brownie. Instead I tried those Newton's crisps. I had the cherry vanilla and they were pretty good. After I had the cookie and a glass of chocolate milk made with FF milk, I was happy. I didn't want anything else.
I made a healthy dinner and was done.
Victories. Each small victory is going to lead me to my magic number. It's going to lead me to my goals. I did not concentrate today on what I could NOT have. I didn't obsess, I didn't worry. I just did it. When I wanted that brownie (and in the past I would have had some in the oven in record time...) I told myself that I didn't eat that anymore. I said it with authority and sincerity and I believed me. I said, "you don't eat that anymore, but you can have this Newton's cookie if you want. It fits into your plan." And I did.
I'm tired of letting the weeks, months and years go by with me never getting any closer to my goals. I refuse to go in circles anymore. I'm hopping off the merry go round and doing something about it!
I also don't expect change overnight. I expect that life is going to throw me curves and that sometimes I'm NOT going to say no to the brownies. I'm okay with that too. As long as I keep my eyes on my goal and have a solid plan, nothing is going to derail me for long. I'm going to get there.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
ARW715 2/23/2013 8:44AM

    Great blog, Kristi. Thanks for writing, sharing and inspiring me! Have a great Saturday!

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WALLAHALLA 2/21/2013 9:21PM

    Most excellent. Now those are the words of a victorious women on her way to a mind-blowing success!

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MIDROAD 2/21/2013 8:25AM

    Kristi WOW! I love your blogs! They insightful and beautifully written and always inspire me.
It's funny how we are all so different yet so alike!
I've often wondered if the key to most of our problems lie in self love or the lack there how many problems would just vanish if we really believed in our own self worth?
Thanks again for sharing and reminding me emoticon


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MALEXANDER4 2/21/2013 6:56AM

    Oh my beautiful friend you spoke or wrote the words in my head. I so need to quit with the thinking of gotta do this now. Now is not the way. I need to plan, aim, and track better. So you have given me a better outlook for today. Thank Kristi and the notebook idea is wonderful. I keep a journal of foods, water, exercise, but your going ahead and planning is a wonderful idea.

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