Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Yeah today was that time again. I LOVE seeing my doctor! It just makes my day.
Found out I have a sinus infection that I didn't know I had. Thought I was just congested. Prescribed antibiotics. Found out I have fluid behind my eardrums. No wonder I haven't been hearing well the last few weeks. Thought I was just tuning out the husband. However I guess this calls for a trip to the ENT. Have I said how much it thrills me to see a doctor. ANY DOCTOR!
Everything else was okay except my BP which was an exciting 180/100. And yes, this is with meds. The doc and I already know what the cause is... STRESS & ANXIETY not to mention EXTREME White Coat Syndrome. I see any doc and my numbers, if they are not already over the top, sky rocket, and I do me to the moon and back! As for the stress and anxiety, my doctor adds that after years of living highly stressed one's body becomes accomplish to it and eventually the BP begins to react. As it keeps adjusting to more and more stress, the anxiety and therefore the BP keep going up, and up, and up. My doc's advice: Rid myself of the STRESS. Yeah, right! Like that will happen anytime soon. 2 years ago I was sent hurdling to the ER with a BP of 218/160. After a barrage of tests it all came down to the S & A words. I was told to go home and decompress. Learn to drop the rope and RELAX! Obviously from today's numbers I haven't yet learned to do that. So here I sit wondering, do I lock myself up in a box nice and tight, or just the husband and daughter?
It was suggested back in 2010 that I try an anti depressant but silly me, I researched them on the net and scared the daylights out of myself. Not sure why the doc doesn't suggest an anti anxiety medication but he doesn't. He has suggested however seeing a counselor which DH has denied, stating repeatedly we can't afford it. My doc than said I might try some wine but when he found out I have dependency issues running rampant in my family, that recommendation was quickly retracted. Now I am just told to relax, don't worry and be happy, like I can snap my fingers and do just that. Oh how I wish!
Seriously though I need to find some way to chill out, calm down, let go, relax, find my inner zen, and learn to bring my numbers down or I am going to literally explode one day, most likely right there in the docs office.
My next appt is scheduled for late April when I get to have even more fun with a lab tech and a needle with a passion for poking my arms and hands multiple times trying to find a vein that just isn't there. Anyone want to guess what my BP will be then?