I Wish I knew how to deal with my life.While living it!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Tonight my sister and I got into a argument. And it was mostly about me being to freaking lazy as always. And then I started talking about her so called boyfriend to my mother vary loudly. And she got mad and called my grandmother and then my grandmother jumped all down my through. So basically I have to take my sister and grandmother both criticizing me. And I am getting so sick of the both saying whatever they feel like to me. I balled like a baby in front of my mother and grandmother and all my grandmother did was make a dropping motion with her hands under her belly and said Dawn you need to start doing more for yourself your fat is just dropping. I felt so sick to my stomach it was hard to breath and then I just kept crying and I said I just don't care anymore. All they ever do is criticize me all of them do I am just so sick of it.
And I guess it doesn't help living next door to your grandmother and having your sister and her boyfriend living with you.
Some times its just so freaking hard. It helps writing. I know it sounds a bit weird writing it on here. But its the only place Where people listen and actually help. It hurts when a complete stranger online will help you feel better when your own family is the one driving in the knife.