Wednesday, February 20, 2013
It's so hard to think of planning a wedding as a senior in college. There are so many questions people start to ask you. Questions like: "What are you going to do when you get out?" or "Are you going to go to graduate school?" or "So what do you want to do with that [degree]?". Truthfully, I only know the answer to the second question (which is a big fat NO!). Right now the only thing I know is that I have a lot of work to do in order to graduate, and it does not get easier to plan a wedding when you have to deal with your fiancé's DEPLOYMENT! Being a US Airmen, he is being sent away from me for four month to a country I only heard of recently, on a day of which he does not even know. It makes things soooo stressful here on the homefront! A 20-something girl should not be having to think of the possibility of the love of her life not coming home again, or worse, not coming home alive. It isn't right that a 20-something girl should have to listen as he explains to his family how he wishes to be buried if by chance his time comes. It's heartbreaking! I remember I couldn't even look at my wedding plans when they first came up, and trying on the wedding dress (while exciting) only made it all more real. But still I have to push on. While my fears are indeed real, so is my faith. I know that my God will protect him and bring him home to me. So in the meantime, I have a couple of pounds to lose to fit that gorgeous gown I purchased! I couldn't be more excited! And now that I have received my Oriental Trading Wedding Catalog, let the festive planning (and weight watching) begin!
"Jesus said, “Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust in me." ~John 14:1 (NCV)