WOW! I'm really an emotional roller-coaster. In one way, I think it's a good point for me because I hold nothing inside and let it all out, like you saw in yesterday's blog. I bet that's why I'm never tensed in the neck and back! Ok, all jokes aside, I really need to write a follow-up to that desperate SOS call I wrote yesterday.
I knew I would get a few good answer, maybe some emoticons saying I was able to di it, just keep pushing, etc.
But I was really touched this morning when I started reading your answers. They were GREAT! Honnest like I like it (my BF got me used to brutal honesty) and kind as well. I knew I wasn’t the only one to experienced these feelings and I wanted to find ways to stop them.
First, I want to say that I don’t weigh myself everyday but maybe 2-3 times a week. Also, you were probably right about the water retention in my muscle because this morning I was lower. Still a gain since last week but not as dramatic.
Now, since my computer is broken, I must use my work station and I only have a few minutes during my lunch break that’s why I don’t write you all back like I want to do.
I’m feeling way better today. I realised I was not being totally honnest with myself and looking back, I know exatly why I’m not losing. Latelly, I’ve been buying more junk but I was eating it when no one could see me, as if it would make a difference if I was alone or not. I also stop listening to my conscience and went on a guilt trip.
JENNGETTINGBUFF linked for me an article and WOW! It's exactly what I needed, spot on the behaviour I had.
Here's the link, it's really fantastic : www.sparkpeople.com/reso
I will now listen to my little voice. otherwise, I'm just hurting myself and I should not do that.
LMB100 also gave me a great link to her blog: www.sparkpeople.com/mypa
And many others gave me the same advice: who cares about motivation? Fake it till you make it should be my quote from now on.
Also, I won't go into a very restrictive carb diet, but I'll keep reducing them, trying to stay at the lowest of my SP range.
My BF also pointed out to me that at the beginning of my journey, I was planning more. Amking list of the weeks meal and grocery lists as well. I knew in advance what I would eat instead of tracking after and maybe ''forget'' a cracker or a chocolate bar in the tracker.
So I'll start that again, give it a try. It worked in the past, why would it be different now?
I can not promise you I won't have another meltdown and come crying about my life ever again.
But I feel so better now knowing if I'm feeling down, I can simply reach out here on SP and find some super supportive people.
I lost control, but now I don't want control, I simply want to be in charge. There's a big difference because I can't lose it and I'm responsible for my choices.
I would love to go on and on to thanks each of you, but I don't have time (I must also learn a new choir piece for this week-end and since my favorite tool to do so is my computer, I'm also praticing this Bach piece during my lunch break!).
Thanks from the bottom of my heart, I'll let you know how I'm doing later this week.