Wednesday, February 20, 2013
In this journey that I am on, I hope to not only discover a healthier and fitter version of me but I also hope to discover who I am as a person. Now, in this day in age it is easy to lose yourself and try and be like someone else with all the media influence we encounter on a daily basis. I have tried for a long time not to be like what I see, but I have felt like I am lacking in some way because I am not adequate, not the norm. I have been in a constant battle with myself since I was a teenager, when being like everyone else is the main priority. Unfortunately, this has carried on over now into my 20’s and as I head into my thirties I don’t want to battle against myself any longer, I want to accept myself.
I am slowly accomplishing that day by day, by doing something simple, listening to myself and paying attention. I am a very calm, quiet and even a shy person and I have tried for years to be the opposite, act overly energized and outgoing, but it isn’t who I am, so it was a battle to try and be something I wasn’t. When I wasn’t being overly energized and outgoing I felt like I was lacking somehow, we are living in the world of 5 hour energy drinks and the outgoing people experience more of life because they aren’t shy. I decided to accept myself and if I am quiet and even shy sometimes it doesn’t mean it’s something bad, it’s who I am.
I refuse to let media and other sources influence me into thinking I am lacking in some way. Taking the time to discover the little nuances about myself is something I am enjoying. I feel more centered and stronger in some way because I am not battling against the current anymore. It feels good to finally accept myself.