Wednesday, February 20, 2013
I started off great, I had a plan and I stuck with it, up until a week and a half ago, It first started when we decided to go to a mexican restaurant, I did good, I ordered the healthy version and had them give me a box to put half of it up right away. Then we went to the mall and the chocolate chip cookies were looking very good I thought one cookie won't hurt. I continued to eat two more cookies, then from there I was off track. I started binge eating I wanted all the foods that I knew that I couldn't have right now although, I knew that if I ate in moderation I would be okay but I wasn't. I was in denial!! I ignored the part of my brain that was telling me to stop. After doing this to myself I started feeling bad my chest started hurting, I started feeling sluggish, I woke up with my hands swollen from all that sodium. I know that everyday is a new day, a new choice I make to live healthy but, I am still far from having the discipline that I need to help me stay on track. So this is what I am going to be working on (discipline) this week and there after, I realize that life happens and there will be many more mall visits with the cookies and I have to know and love myself enough to only eat the one cookie or to choose to walk away... Today I am back on track, I'm not going to beat myself up over it, instead I am going to learn and build from it and know that I am only human!