Learning about myself...maybe I can figure this out after all!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
The past week has been a rollercoaster both mentally and physically. I basically just lost it. Lost my self control, enthusiasm, organization....it all just up and left me! So, needless to say I spent the better part of the week allowing myself to make really poor decisions and then beating myself up for it. Not cool. Why is it that I can do so great for a few weeks and then all of the sudden just completely fall apart? This question just kept popping up in my mind, so I decided to look back at my past journals, blogs, and my food tracker to see if I have struggled like this before. Guess what, I think I may have figured it out! I noticed that each month, about a week before my period, my energy levels waned, my eating was terrible, my posts were quite sad and self-deprecating. It appears that my body has a tough time with this week every month! One would think that I would have figured this out before, right?! Not me! I should mention that I am the type of person that flies by the seat of my pants, just doing what I need to do to make it day to day, LOL! Factor in my natural tendency for procrastination, 3 kids, husband, dog, full time job, etc, and the result is that I can't remember what happened yesterday! So I am grateful that I have been tracking info in SP these past few months because it's the only reason I was able to see a pattern (another reason to love SP). Tracking has shown me that there are significant changes in my whole demeanor that come before my period each month. Some months worse than others, but always there. My next course of action is to figure out what I can do about this. Certainly many other women must suffer from the same thing, so I am hopeful there are things I can do to minimize the destruction that can occur each month. At one point this past week, I was up 5 pounds for pete's sake! Historically, this would have been my signal to give up and then I would have really ballooned and have a mental bashing session. That just can't be an option any more. All in all, I kind of pulled it together the past couple of days and was down .8 at today's WIN. That is way better than I expected. It is a relief to know that this wasn't simply "me" choosing to give in...that was the hardest part for me to accept. So, now it is up to me to regain my focus and do a bit of research and nip this in the bud. It is really enlightening to learn things like this about myself. This is big people!!