Wednesday, February 20, 2013
I've never been speedy gonzalez, but I feel like it this morning. A few days ago, I sprained my knee and my activity plummeted. When I had to go to work, my walking was either excruciatingly slow or an over pronounced limp. Not pretty at best, but frustrating, woeful and hard not to feel depressed about it. What I kept thinking about though, was one of my friends who broke his leg a couple of YEARS ago and is still going through surgeries and rehab stints. I thought about soldiers who lost their legs and would give one minute to be where I am. In the house, it was not much better, and even yesterday I thought about folks who get trapped in their house because of fear. I was afraid to walk down the steps to leave my house, but I braced myself against the door and the siding on the house and managed to get out. (and miraculously in!)
This morning when I left the house, I stood on the front steps until the neighbors drove away. I did my best to look like I was waiting for someone. ha! When I got enough courage to go, (and it was freezing cold!), I did it with the help of a cane and holding onto the bush and it was so much better than yesterday.
That is how progress feels! It takes over you and when you realize it is so much better than the last time you did it, it is like a tail waggin' (if I had a tail), whoop whoop hollerin' feeling that takes a hold inside of you and you want to SHOUT YESSSSSSSS!!! I DID IT!!!!!!!
It is humbling to take a few baby steps, quite literally, and then feel free enough to walk a few steps. It reminded me to not lean on my power, but to share it with my higher power and continue to believe and improve. This was one of those life changing moments I had this morning on my steps! Yes, you can improve. Yes, you can make progress, and pardon the pun, but I am doing it one little baby step at a time!!!!!!