Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Today I listened again to the IOWL podcasts on gratitude for plateaus. I'm not sure I'm actually in one, but the scale is moving VERY slowly down. Now, given the four months of almost non-stop binging and the large amount of weight I regained during that time, any movement down is fantastic. But like so many of us here on SP, despite knowing better, knowing that slow, steady loss is the best loss, despite knowing that focusing on NSVs is much more powerful, a little part of me still wants to see ALL the weight gone NOW (or yesterday)!
So I listened to the podcast and thought long and hard about why I'm so grateful for this very slow loss:
1. It's making me think about non-scale victories and healthy living successes everyday!
2. I don't have the immediate gratification of seeing the scale go down, so I have to learn to sit with that discomfort and disappointment. This is a huge lesson for me. Part of why I have binged in the past is because whenever I have an uncomfortable emotion, I want to soothe it away with food (and we know how that goes...). So when I don't see the quick movement I'd love to see on the scale, I have to deal with it. I have to accept it, accept any frustration, disappointment, inner whining, etc, and change my focus.
3. It's making me think about my eating behavior more carefully. I am not binging, which is terrific, but I am also eating too fast and maybe a bit too much. I feel better when I really slow down and savor my food. I also feel better when I eat reasonable portions instead of inhaling huge quantities of anything, even healthy foods.
4. It's a sign that my body is releasing actual weight, not just water weight. And on days when the scale stays put, it means my body is readjusting to this new weight, getting ready to release more.
So thank you plateau! You've given me a lot of gifts.