Never refer to yourself as "Garbage". Refer to yourself lovingly and well. That's the first step in getting food in perspective. You are worth it, you are beautiful, do not let the nay sayer mental midget in your mind keep running you down or telling you that you can't do it. Tell it to shut up and replace it with a positive action or a posive word. Try this, every time you hear the negtive mind monger, hit it where it counts, get up take a quick walk, down the hall, around the house, down to the mail box, move your body, energy creates energy. Or do something nice for you, yourself, trim your nails, put some pretty nail polish on, put your hair up in pretty bun, try some lipstick, lol. And you can also blast that negative mind voice with tons of positive words, counter act it right in its tracks. It gets easier the more you do it, I find doing the vlogs keeps me more accountable, lol. Good luck and you will find alot of inspiration thru fello sparkers.