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On Water, SparkFriend Search and Affirmation from afar...

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

To all that checked in on me during my absence from Spark I thank you - and to all I missed responding to, I am truly sorry. I have spent the last month & a half trying to figure out what was wrong with my body and my mind. My weight has fluctuated in crazy ways since hitting 219 months ago, now I have been as low as 212 and as high as 230, with 15-20 lb water weight fluctuations being gained or lost in 4-5 days. Anyone else experience a strange water weight rollercoaster 9 months post op from VSG or other WLS? I should have posted those weights on those days but just let it consume my attention and before you knew it, some demons from my past resurfaced. It's my fault, I let it happen but here's how it happened:

My diet consists of nonfat yogurt, granola or cereal on top, protein shakes when I remember, and vitamins. I have tolerated real food in tiny portions, it's more of an occasional treat than a habit now to eat real foods, but it's going to be a while until finances improve and I regain my mojo in the kitchen. Thanks to help from a friend, I have a brand new bag of Cytosport 100% Whey Protein Chocolate Powder from Costco - so I have no excuse for not being properly nourished. I wonder - could it be that I get little salt if any from my regular diet? and that is affecting my body's ability to establish water balance?

The other thing that is happening more and more is people close to me telling me to stop losing weight - that I am skinny enough. I've heard that so much this year that I even started replacing Snickers Bars for meals. In addition to the new Snickeraddiction, I have had such deep depression that I either at little or ate yogurt & cereal every hour or two and nap in my recliner all day.

As most blogs do, this one is providing some answers as I type it - my irregular but mostly nutritious diet needs to be more stable and include a small amount of salt to be able to retain water normally. I really need to find the motivation to track what I eat on a daily basis - and monitor how it affects my weight and body's water level. I still would like to hear your thoughts and experiences on this issue...therein lies the joy of spark!

Here's something cool to share - I use PalTalk.com as my main chat program, and a person I have known for years on PalTalk (she's a nurse) ran into someone they talked about SparkPeople and whomever that SparkFriend was out there knew all about me - SprinkleChez and my blogs. If you are that person from Ohio, WV or PA that had such a conversation with my PalTalk Nurse Friend - please send me a SparkMail!

We truly do touch more peoples' lives than we ever realize. But once & a while we are lucky enough to get that affirmation from a stranger or by long distance, and that my friends, is a feeling that I cherish, its why we're here. I am glad I am here and will be forever grateful for each and every one of you being in my life. May God bless you and yours everyday-

Your friend, "Sprink"
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    I can relate to the weight fluctuations. I seem to gain and lose the same 15 pounds. I find, though, that my body is very sensitive to sodium in foods and that water retention can get out of control. I blogged not too long ago about how I ate an entire jar of pickles along with the pickle juice. I gained 6 pounds in one day :(

    I try to weigh in each morning but sometimes I need a break from the scale, since it can be a bit of an emotional rollercoaster at times.
    1799 days ago
    You are not going to get much nutritional value from a Snicker.People should be more supportive of your efforts and let you determine your weight.
    I hope you get a handle on your health issues.

    1824 days ago
  • PATTYR81
    Hi Sprink~
    I am soooo glad you've come back to SP! emoticon
    I've REALLY MISSED your posts! I was just about ready to start trolling other websites and FB to find you.

    I totally agree with the other comments, so I won't repeat and be-labor them.

    I will say that you have an untold number of friends here that are ready, willing and able to empathize, support, commiserate, and a whole bunch of other verbs that mean 'doing SOMETHING' with and for you. Just as YOU have done with and for us.

    We definitely are ALL IN IT TOGETHER!

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    1824 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/21/2013 8:22:00 AM
    First day tracking my food intake was a success. Learned a lot from the analysis - went way over on carbs and little low in potassium but other than that I am pleased with my 1200 calories, and know what I need to do differently with my next meals to balance the nutrition properly. Thanks for keeping me on track (no pun intended). "Sprink"
    1824 days ago
    Hi Sprink - how's it going with the nutrition tracker? I track my food everyday even if I go over my calorie limit! It keeps me honest and I can look back at trends! I really hope the water balance works out so you won't be depressed. And remember - We are here for each other!!

    Take care emoticon
    1825 days ago
  • BOVEY63
    Happy to see you back on.
    1825 days ago

    So glad I finally was able to chat with you!! Sorry to hear of the problems you have been having lately. You are always there when I need you and I can be there for you, but you have to check- in on SP. Sorry I don't know much about your surgery. I can say that I am glad to have the opportunity to get to know you!! Spark People did that for me. I track my food at least 6 sometimes 7 days a week. Really helps me. I started walking outside. Hope to continue for a long time.

    Have a great day!!

    Your Sparked friend,
    1825 days ago
  • ANYVAR54
    I have not had your surgery, but I do deal with depression, and you need to talk to your doctor about it. A lot of people suffer depression after major surgery. My MIL had major heart surgery and was ready to die right in the hospital, they put her on an antidepressant and it improved her mood and she got better. It only has to be for a short period of time.

    And about your family telling you to quit loosing weight. Isn't that between you and your doctor? You should quit listening to your family and do what your doctor is telling you.

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    1825 days ago
    One of the things that convinced me to get the VSG was that after the surgery I would be able to eat a well balanced and healthy diet (which I was eating already, just waaaaay too much of it!). I have been extremely happy with the results and I can eat anything I want, just in small amounts.

    Now, my dear, what is preventing you from eating a good and balanced diet of lean protein, vegetables, fruit, and good carbs? If your stomach can tolerate a snickers bar, don't you think it can handle a chicken leg and some greens?

    And if you can afford that snickers bar, you can afford healthier fare. Be as decent to yourself as you are to others and stop sabotaging your wonderful success.

    OK? *hug*
    1825 days ago
    It's astounding just how small the world really is!

    Sprink - I have never had the kind of surgery you have...but I'm sure you will figure out what works right for your body. Talk to your doctor - maybe there is a support group out there for you.

    Take it one day at a time - I know emoticon
    1825 days ago

    So glad to see you back on Spark. Sorry to hear you have been struggling. Have you talked to Emily? Don't they have some kind of food plan you should be following to get all the right nutrients you need? I think tracking your food here would be a good idea. It does break it down into composition and you can also add other things to track like sodium and fiber. Keep active here on Spark, you may get good advice from others with WLS. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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