Feb 20th 2013. Update.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Here is the latest on Nicole she is holding her own. She has had her first chemo treatment, they are planned for every 21 days. She did not do so bad. Nic said that she had a feeling a bit like being pregnant. Just a low grade nauseous feeling on the second evening. This has lasted about a week, but she was greatly affected by food smells. She had one 24 hr period of "up chuck" but so far so good. The one thing that has happened is that she has pneumonia. Doctor's have an eye on her, she is home but every one is ready if the meds. do not work quick enough they are ready to get her into the hospital.
I can't tell you how it was to watch her get her first chemo treatment it took about three and half hours. Both my husband and I were there. I had a hard time not bursting into tears. I knew I had to be tough for her and my husband but heck it was tough!
I was a very lucky mum and was able to be her labor coach at the birth of her three kids. Watching her in pain then was tough but knowing that a new life was coming kind of made it all worth it. Watching her do chemo is so depressing etc. I don't know what to do with some of these feelings. I have begun a journal for just me and I vent like crazy.
I have had two friends drop away since Christmas, I guess they do not know what to say. I just find after thirty years you could handle some crap. The other person I have known about 13 years. I hope I never do that to someone. I don't have a lot of friends so they have left a bit of a gap. All I can say is, I guess it is good they have left now because when the going gets really rough I need to know who is there for me!
I will try and keep you up to date but lets go with the, no news is good news, just in case a few weeks go by with out updates!