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Women's Gym Locker Room Politics: My Body Is not Ugly

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Hey hey Sparkworld,
Something strange has been happening over the last couple of weeks and I feel the need to share!

My university gym locker room is an interesting exercise in building and or destroying self-esteem. You see the showers, dressing area, etc are all open, and at any given point in time there are women with beautifully fit bodies walking around leisurely naked, seemingly without a self-conscious care in the world.

I on the other hand, wind my towel tight around my body, shower at the back of the open hall, and dress with my towel around me. In the last couple of weeks, I've found myself not holding my towel so tightly, and dressing more leisurely than I've done in the 1.5 years that I have used these facilities

Do I feel more confident about my body? Not necessarily. The rolls are still there and yes there's a jiggle to my walk (LOL TMI?), but I realized today that I have been treating my body like it is an aberration compared to the women I saw around me. My body is not ugly. I am not ugly, and I'm not going to hide it in shame as if it does not merit the same kind of praise as these fit women's bodies.

My body as currently stands with all its flaws is wonderfully made. I will not cower in shame, but I will take time to nurture my body, knowing that all of my effort will pay off someday.

I will likely not be the woman who model walks naked though the locker, but I will likely be the girl who takes her time to get dressed at the gym and appreciates her body for all the amazing things it allows her to do now.

Whew, building confidence is work!
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    What a wonderful perspective!! You are right about appreciating our bodies at any size. They do so much for us!! It seems we deserve more right to love our bodies as we put them through a lot getting the weight off.

    You are beautiful! Embrace it for sure.
    1675 days ago
    Yes it is! but work thats well worth the effort. I love it that you have arrived at this place.
    1675 days ago
    Good for you! I'm swimming at a public pool right now, and it is the first time in years that I've exercised in a place with absolutely NO privacy for changing.

    It's a bit traumatic for me as I still have some belly fat, plus loose skin and 10 scars on my belly that I would really prefer to hide...but I'm realizing that what is real and the image that I have in my head of what the average body is "supposed" to look like are not the same thing.

    The average female body is fat and jiggly. It's normal, and honestly the experience is making me feel much better about my own looks, comparatively.
    1676 days ago
    You are SO right!!! I am a "tight towel" wearer in public, too, but am following along with you in appreciating my body for all it can do. So I'm right there with you. Love who we are, and be confident in our bodies. After all, it's the only one we have, so we might as well make peace with it!

    Keep up the good work, and strut that stuff!
    1676 days ago
    Agreed! a well written post!
    1676 days ago
    wow I wish I could get that confidence
    1676 days ago
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