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Tuesday, February 19, 2013

I'm 23 years young. I've already seen so much for my age. The one lesson I've learned is that true love, joy and peace is with God, and you have to be with Him, in Him, to truly possess any of these.

I have felt so much pain at times, that I thought it unbearable. I am still happily amazed by God's ability to turn our deepest problems into strengthening blocks. When I FULLY gave in to God, He soothed me. I went through a tough break up and my chest still hurts from time to time because I was literally crying for hours a day for more than a month. I became so desperate that I demanded God's presence in my spirit... and I knew He was there. I felt Him, and He comforted me, and He always will. For that, He and I now have a bond that no person can interupt. Even when I mess up, I feel Him giving me tough love, but not abandoning me. And I, because I love Him, try harder and don't do a lot of the things that my mind and flesh would have me.

Anyway, I am saying this because now I am being tested again, but indirectly. Something has happened to someone very close to me. I cannot do ANYTHING (besides pray) to help her. It pains me to see her hurting and to not even be there to hold her. She can't really talk about it right now and it is taking everything not to scream and cry (myself and her). She is so close to me, and I to her. Her anger, her hurt.... what do I do? I am helpless, away at school, and it's hard to smile now.

But, you know what? She is God's child (just as I am). And I am NOT God. Maybe this is to humble me and allow me to accept that bad things happen that may or may not get better. But GOD will take care of His children. It is not up to me. I am to support her and pray for her. This obstacle is for me to learn, step back, rely on God, and test my patience (probably more). It is for her also, for reasons I don't know.

Now I can smile. I still love God, God still loves me, and this trouble is NOT God's fault. Yes, He has allowed it to take place, but He is NOT the cause of it. He is the alleviation, the One in whom we find true peace, love and joy. Perhaps, that is what we both will see more of with this test (even if things don't get better). emoticon

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AY_BEAUTIFUL89 2/20/2013 10:05PM


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MARTYLYNN1 2/20/2013 12:41AM

    Yes, we have to "let go and let God."

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ANDREAG89 2/19/2013 11:26PM

    Wow. Thank you so much for writing this blog. Spot on. Amen.

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