Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Today marked the two year anniversary of my Mother's passing. It's still such a huge loss and life will really never be the same again. I was so lucky to have had the mother I did, she was my biggest fan, my friend, and she always loved me, unconditionally. I think of her very day in some way. It was eerie today to have realized the exact day and then have Miranda Lambert's song, "Over You" come on the radio at a that precise time. All too often, I just feel at a loss, it seems so wrong that she is gone. My family will never be the same again. My father is planning on re-marrying this June, at age 82 years old to someone he met at his support group. I just can't get past the disloyalty to my mother, it's wrong, I can't accept it, even though I want him to be happy, he feels like a stranger now.
I have to work all this through, I know, and I thought putting it in writing might somehow make it better, but it doesn't seem to help.
One foot in front of the other....