So this is at least the 5th major time that I've either lost or attempted to lose weight. I think every single night for the past year and a half, I've laid in my bed after a day of not meeting my goals thinking, "Tomorrow will be different - I have to change tomorrow - no more messing around"
Obviously that tactic is simply not working. I'm at a weight that I never, ever, ever, in a million years thought that I'd be. I just don't recognize the person that I see when I look in the mirror or at pictures.
I have a very big (once in a lifetime type of) trip to Europe coming up this summer. All I can think is that I would be so angry at myself if, A) I can't look at the pictures that I take of myself and my husband on this trip because of body issues and B) I can't enjoy trekking around Paris, Venice, and Santorini because I'm not in the shape I need to be and should be in.
Another thing that's creeping up from the back of my mind is that I'm getting to the point in my life where kids are going to become a goal in the next few years. As of right now, I just know that my body isnot in the hsape is needs to be to handle the pregnancy, labor process, and most of all taking care of a child. It would be unhealthy for me and my child. Before I can even think about taking that next step in my life, I have to get my weight and overall health under control.
So in a desperate effort to do anything that I can to make an actual change in my day to day life, and hopefully see a change in my body as well as the number on the scale, I'm coming back to an old friend - The sparkpeople page. I've tried this before with minimal success, but I will hopefully use this blog page as a diary of sorts and a method of accountability. Since I don't want to annoy my friends with constant updates about my food intake or wins/losses for the day, this seems to be the best alternative!
I really want this to work. I want to be optimistic and think that I can make a significant change. That I can eat healthy and not just grab quick junk. I can make time to prepare meals, go for walks, workout a strengthening routine (for my core in particular!). Let's just hope I'm right this time.
Below is a picture of me 5 years ago - I was roughly 145lbs and, at the time, desperate to lose weight. Looking back, all I want is to look this way again. This is my goal.
To follow will be a breakdown of my weight loss goals with a proposed timeframe and rewards I will give myself, as well as a planned menu for tomorrow. I'm hoping this menu planning will be my daily routine. If anyone happens to actually read this...any words of encouragement to help hold me accountable to this would be greatly appreciated!