So I've officially lost 50 pounds now! But I still have a looooong way to go. I'm barely halfway to my goal weight. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm still far away so that I don't get comfortable. I may have lost 50 pounds, but I'm still 40 pounds overweight. Well, 40 pounds from my goal weight of 150. Actually, my healthy range for my height is 125 to 168. So I'm really actually less than 25 pounds overweight now. That sounds better. :) And 150 may end up being too skinny or too hard to maintain, so I guess I'm really shooting for 150-160, somewhere in there. I just want to look good and feel good and maintain that. :) And I want to be strong! With a little definition in my arms. Not gross looking, just strong. I don't think I even want like a sticking out six pack. I don't think it's very feminine. I just don't want extra weight.
And one thing I'm really looking forward to is going to the store and looking good in anything I try on and not having my stomach stick out!!!! That WILL happen someday! Oh, and going to the family reunion and not being the fattest cousin. I'm probably not the fattest cousin, but I feel like it. If I lose 8 pounds a month, I will be into my healthy range by the time the family reunion comes around. And also I told my gyno about losing weight and running the half and she's the one who prescribed me the phentermine, so I really, really want to show up at my yearly appointment and show her that I actually DID do what I said I would do. And another little motivator is that I want to lose so much weight that my doctor asks me about it and I can say that I've been eating healthier foods in healthy proportions and exercising.
My husband, Brad, always tells me that I'm pretty and all that kind of stuff, but he does say that it's hard for him to notice my weight loss since he sees me everyday. But last night, he was looking at some old pictures and said, "you are so skinny now!" And I looked at the pictures and saw that I was SUCH a cow!! EEWWWWWWW!! It was gross. I can NEVER do that again. I had no chin at all, just my face went into my neck and my eyes looked so tiny. I told him I was sorry for getting that fat and thanks for staying with me. lol.
I think I am finally getting smaller than I was in college. The problem is that I didn't really weigh then, so I have no idea. But I went through my closet last night and tried on and got rid of a bunch of stuff and one t-shirt I wore a lot on college I think fit better than it did then. I think. It's hard to remember that long ago. :)
I have this purple dress that I wore to my first semi-formal dance in ninth grade. I still have that somewhere.... It would be AWESOME to fit into that again!!!!!!!! I should make that one of my goals! Fit into a dress I wore in ninth grade!!!!!!! I'm going to find it!
I just remembered that I'd posted a pic of me in the dress a long time ago and had to go all the way back to my August blogs, but I found it! I have no idea what kind of face I'm making, but I want to fit into this dress again!