Tuesday, February 19, 2013
This blog could easily go downhill and be a downer...but I'm going to try my best to not let it.
I'm still feeling, as I posted recently, that I'm on a "diet" and one I keep "breaking" or cheating on which really isn't the best long-term healthy lifestyle approach I'm striving for. It also brings back bad feelings that I keep having to get up and brush myself off, and start over, AGAIN. which frankly, I'm sick of. So I'm going to try my best to just not let myself feel that way; each day is a new day, each time I put something in my mouth is a new opportunity to make better decisions.
This past week I started out strong, 4 straight days of "perfect" calories and exercise. Then came Valentine's day which was very indulgent...and the day after and the day after :( I did the smart thing and only ate half my Valentine's dinner but then because I had the leftovers the next day, I knew they were unhealthy, but didn't know how bad the calories, etc. were so I considered the whole day off. Bad, I know. Also, I had been struggling with some knee pain again and didn't want to overwork it and make it worse, so even though I came up with a low impact workout, it wasn't as cardio heavy as I usually do so I didn't burn as many calories as I would like.
Luckily even my bf was on board to make Saturday a healthy day and we had fun playing some boxing Wii against each other and then working out more after that, each taking turns coming up with what move to do next (he came up with push up high-fives, so we faced each other, and alternated between push ups and high fiving each other's opposite hand while in plank = KILLER). Then, we had a grocery date to go to Whole Foods and a, get our groceries for the week but also b, treat ourselves to a pre-made but healthy dinner option. Lame, but I enjoyed it. The problem has been that we still have lots of treats in our house and I've been indulging. Not only did we get dessert for Valentines dinner, we got one TO-GO. It seemed like a romantic idea at the time, but then we just ended up eating more dessert on Friday, which means 2 desserts in 2 days and more than I normally would ever have. Dessert should be on occasional treat. And that's not all, we also had a chocolate cake sitting in our freezer and my bf decided we needed to make more room so he got into that too! grrrr I have no will power when it comes to treats, that's why I don't like them being in the house in the first place. But, soon, all these extra treats will be gone and I will get back on track.
It's been several weeks since I've even lost a pound...while I haven't gained, I'm not where I want to be. But instead of beating myself up about it I'm going to look at the positive: I haven't gained, I did enjoy my Valentine's treats, I will move forward. I have worked out, just not as much as I'd like. Also in there my back pain flared up on Sunday so I wasn't able to work out. ugh. I need to take care of myself. However, what I did learn from this week is that even on days I didn't track because I had something I didn't know the calories off and thought I had blown my day, I tried not to. I ate my freggies. I tried to be cognizant of my hunger, and while I was afraid to weigh myself I was pleased that I had not gained despite my indulgences.
So, with all this being said, I need to go back to the basics and stay on track. I've been infinitely better about getting my 5 full freggie servings in daily but my weakness has been my post-dinner sweet tooth and other cravings. and so, to recommit to the basics:
1. Only eat when I'm hungry! Truly hungry. I will make asking myself whether I am hungry before I eat something a habit.
2. Stay within my calorie range! I'd like to see how long I can make it without a "bad day"
3. If physically able (knee and back problems etc. aside) work out daily.
4. Drink water!
I'm also debating about doing daily accountability blogs. I still track, even on my bad days, all the calories I've eaten but it doesn't seem to help me that much because I still see it and get upset, but it's only me seeing it and it's only me who gets frustrated when I'm not seeing results. I'm wondering if letting other people know how I've done will increase my accountability. Thoughts from those that have tried accountability blogs?