Tuesday, February 19, 2013
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who read my blog and showed their support. I know I already sent you all thank you notes and everything, but I wanted to thank you again for the support. I really needed it and I'm feeling like I need to wake up and realize that I can do this. I've done it before and I need to stop getting in my way and realize there's a lot to like about myself and I need to stop letting my depression and PTSD win the emotional battles of this journey. I need to stop trying. As Yoda said, "There is no try. You do or you don't do." I probably screwed that up, but the message is the same. Granted, I'm not trying to be a Jedi master, but he's right. And right now I'm not doing. But I'm starting. I'm walking my beautiful dog and I'm trying to get back into the groove of using my plethora of exercise DVDs. I have a lot to look forward to and so much to give. I am two weeks away from finishing my probation (long story), I'm getting married next year, and I hope to start a family someday. I may not get the family part, but I can still go for it. I like to think that if the gods grant it, nothing is impossible. Just like the pregnant cat I rescued last year and who had 4 very healthy, adorable, and sweet babies and all 5 now have happy homes. I made that happen because I could and it was granted to me to do that good deed. One final thing. I know I've been talking a lot about my dog lately so I thought I should share a picture of her beautiful face. Not the best picture because it's hard to take a picture of a black dog, but she's gorgeous, I promise you. And smart. When she was younger and could jump up on things, she taught herself how to open the screen door to get out. Not kidding. She's a genius dog. So, again thank you all and here she is.