Where am I?
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
It's been almost 4 months since I started exercising on a regular basis and tracking my food. If I look at the scale for indication of success or failure, I'd have to side with failure; I've lost 1 pound that has completely stayed off. Not exactly stellar - or even encouraging. Very easy to be discouraged by it. While I am continuing to search for answers as to why the scale isn't changing, that's not the point of this blog.
I seem to be in a transition stage - going from "I'm trying to lose weight and keep it off by changing my lifestyle" to "I'm changing my lifestyle which is resulting in a healthier me, and eventually I will be likely to lose some weight as well." Changing the focus of my motivation, my reasons for exercising and eating well, has made the journey a little bumpy. I'm still exercising most days, and have been tracking my food most days (even on the days when I haven't tracked everything I know that I have eaten within the calorie range), but as I've been trying to figure out what my purpose is in doing so, I have had a little less clarity and sense of focus.
Do I do just aerobic activity? 30 minutes? 60 minutes? Do I use the weights as well? Should I put more emphasis on them than I have been? Do I focus on increasing my protein intake? Reducing my non-vegetable/fruit carb intake? No gluten? Reduced gluten? It's easy to get lost in the chaos of my own questions!
On the wall of my exercise room I graffiti various things that can help to inspire me. One of the words I have put up over the last few weeks is "commitment" - with the letters growing from the beginning to the end. It has pushed me to figure out just what I am committed to, as weight loss is obviously not happening at this point.
So ... I am committed to:
1. Doing aerobic activity - that raises my heart rate, makes me sweat, and would make it hard for me to converse - for an average of 45 minutes daily.
2. Doing strengthening exercises - even if it's just a few every time I exercise - working all of my muscles at least 2 times throughout the week. I will continue to push my muscles to the point where I can feel that a spasm would start after a couple of more reps, or the burning makes me want to cry out (remember, with both of my disorders muscle spasms are common, and the pain I feel when working out doesn't necessarily translate to sore muscles the next day - part of the difficulty in knowing whether I am really pushing myself during a workout).
3. Bringing the amount of yoga I do to about 25% of my workout time (it's strengthening as well as helpful to my muscles and presumably my thyroid).
4. Tracking my foods - honestly -
5. Bringing my food plate into the proportions currently recommended
6. Continuing to search for answers about how to lose the weight, as I do know that would help me. First step is to find someone who will go further with my thyroid testing to ensure that it is truly functioning well.
It's a different focus than I started with. Very different. But it's not bad. I'm still heading in the same direction, just taking a different route and seeing different sights.