Monday, February 18, 2013
I have been a yo yo dieter for all of my adult life. I have come within 5 lbs of goal, but never got there. I am very good at losing weight but have never been successful at keeping it off. Tonight I was watching Biggest Loser. They were exploring the issue of self sabotage with one team member. I started thinking about my past and realized that is what
I have done. For some reason, I am afraid of being successful. I have recently realized that the times I have gained back weight were after changes in my life. I thought what I was doing was testing the new people in my life to see if they will still love me and accept me if I am overweight. I realize that it is more my fear of failure in that new situation. If I fail, I will be able to blame it on the weight and not on me as a person. The most interesting thing is that all in all I have been very successful in my life and my career. I suppose that is why I have been successful at losing. Now that I have this new insight, I need to work on what I need to do to change and break the cycle once and for all.