Monday, February 18, 2013
I know I've had some health issues over the last 18 months but I've come to the realisation that part of the reason I put weight back on is because I didn't like how my body looked after I lost the weight. I think primarily because my expectations of what I would look like were unrealistic. They didn't include excess skin. My vision of what I was going to look like was of when I was 14 and my skin had the elasticity which would have allowed it to return to "normal".
I accept now that that will not happen and I will probably need further surgery to deal with it. In the meantime I can disguise it by wearing the right type of clothes to help me feel better about myself and give me the motivation to reach my final goal.
I will not allow my BED to get the better of me. I know it's still there lurking in the background and that I will probably have to keep a tight rein on it and track regularly for the rest of my life or it just gets out of control which triggers a depression that just makes me eat more. When I get there maintainance is going to be just as hard as losing it in the first place.