Monday, February 18, 2013
I've had a good day today. I ate in range and recorded everything. I am planning to start C25K tonight after supper. I was going to start yesterday but there were some unforeseen obstacles that kept me from the treadmill...so tonight's the night. I'm looking forward to it. I downloaded a free app to guide me through it. Hope it works well.
I talked to an SP friend today. That was nice. It was nice to be able to talk openly about my eating problems and get some feedback and confirmation on things that I had been thinking, observing and suspecting about my journey and recent struggles. I think that I am really clear on what happened with me and where to go from here. Basically, I just need to keep on keepin on and let time continue to heal my hurt and work on stablizing my emotions instead of turning to food to do it for me. Sounds so easy...is so hard.
So, the "beast" is caged for another day. He is wearing down and I am feeling stronger but feeling guardedly optimistic as I have made it to this point MANY times over the past several months...get a few days under my belt...see some pounds dropped on the scale...then BLAMMO...I lose it. Then, it's a day or two before I get my resolve back in place. And I'm making up for lost time...again. So, yep, definitely guardedly optimistic at this point. I am trying to be very, very step by step. I'm doing my "daily's"...Daily logging my food, daily blogging (you might get sick of hearing from me), daily getting my sleep, daily seeking exercise, daily, daily, daily. I'm trying not to miss a beat so that everything continues to move forward. I don't want to fall into the "perfection" trap...just trying to do as much as possible to ensure that I stick with it this time. You know?
Hope you all had a great Monday! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! (And to all you government workers...I'm so jealous you had the day off! Happy President's day!) Spark on!