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Old Books, Memories and Acceptance

Monday, February 18, 2013

Anyone who has been checking out my life lately will know that I'm preparing for a pretty big change in my life.

Sometime this year, I'll be leaving the house I've lived in, raised kids in and raised myself in for the past 24 years. That means a whole lot of paring down and cleaning out. I started with the book shelves; No small task.

I'm a book worm, married to a book worm, who raised book worms. My boy taught himself to read by age three. My youngest was constantly sleeping with at least three books in her bed. Both kids read at a university level by grade 6. My hubby and I met at a science fiction convention. Even half of my cookbooks ( and I have many) have titles like The Baker Street Cookbook, The Jane Austin Cookbook and The Narnia Cookbook.

I came from a family who didn't read. Dad didn't read anything. Seriously. When my sister and I had to clean out his apartment after he passed, the only book there was mum's bible. Mum only read her bible and the occasional cookbook.

I found one of her cookbooks today. It's called Cookbook of foods from Bible Days by Jean and Frank McKibbin. It's falling apart, dog-earred and tattered. It's quite an interesting read, especially for someone who has spent years making medieval recipes and adores lentils. It's interspersed with many biblical references about Israelites wandering through the desert craving melons and the importance of Lamb in the bible. It's actually pretty cool; and it did get me thinking.

I can accept that Mum and Dad were what I refer to as Uber-religious. They really focused their entire lives around their faith. They played organs and pianos, sang, went to events several times a week and never ate a thing without first praying.

I never came out of the Broom Closet to my parents. They had already told me that I will burn eternally in a hell I don't believe in. My mum barely talked to me for a year because I took my daughter to Harry Potter 1 ( okay, it was 5 times, but still). I lived for many years without the basic acceptance of the person whom most of us hold most dear, our Mums.

Acceptance is hard wired into our psyche. We need to be accepted to survive. We need to FEEL accepted to thrive. We are being bombarded by messages that remind us that we are NOT accepted; we are not okay. Finding the inner fortitude to accept our own selves can be difficult. I know.

Once we DO accept ourselves, the real magic begins. We start to feel loved. We start to feel hope. We start to feel powerful. We Start....

I wish you a week of Self-acceptance.
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PENELOPE2244 2/18/2013 10:32PM

    I just want to cry! My self-worth and acceptance is what I work on the most. Intellectually I know I am lovable but inside there is a blockage. I love that you say "Once we DO accept ourselves, the real magic begins. We start to feel loved. We start to feel hope. We start to feel powerful. We Start...." There have been times in my life that I have touched this place and magic did happen. Slowly my fears would creep back in and well...here I am. I am determined to conquer this and let the magic continue to happen. Okay, now I am crying....
I'm sorry you have to go through your books and heaven forbid...decide to let any go. I hope you get to take all of your treasures with you.


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GOODWITCH333 2/18/2013 1:41PM

    This is a note to all Christians, with respect and thanks for your blessings. I value them.

I believe in the Deity.
You connect to the masculine aspect, God. I connect to the feminine aspect of that same Deity, whom I call Goddess.
As witches, we also hold ourselves accountable to a Higher Power and our law "Harm Ye NONE, Do as Ye May".
We also pray before meals, ask for blessings and most of us know that christian's simply call on and connect to the Deity they connect best with. We like that. The name you call God is not as important as making that connection in the first place.
Many of us believe in re-incarnation. Few of us believe in Hell. We do not worship nor even believe in a devil. The devil is part of the christian belief system.
We create sacred space in our homes as you do in your churches. We purify this space, honor and ask for the help of the Deity in it. We value and understand the power of rituals and holy days.

We are far more similar to you than you may be realize. You walk in Christ. I walk with the Goddess.

Blessed Be.

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ALICIA214 2/18/2013 1:14PM

 


I agree with Glitterfairy77 we all have our own levels of being a Christian and in the scheme of things God is our only Judge...
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GLITTERFAIRY77 2/18/2013 12:50PM

    I feel that just because someone does not accept our belifes, it does not mean that they do not accept us. I'm sorry your mother shunned you for taking your kids to see Harry Potter, and as a Christian, she should not have, but the only perfect Christian is a dead one. Christians are just as human as the rest of the world, but feel we have to answer to The Higher Power, and have to hold ourselves to a higher standard. It is not fair of us to hold non-believers to that same standard, because each life journey is a very personal thing-if that makes any sense to you.
At any rate, like my mom, (MamiSheli53) said, blessings on your journey. I hope the move is smooth and safe, as well.
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DAP1313 2/18/2013 12:44PM

    It is hard when your mom doesn't accept you for who you are. I know my mom doesn't accept me either, but I have my hubby who loves me inspite of my many flaws. LOL My kids accept me for who I am also. So I just accept the fact that she doesn't and move on with my life.

I love that last part of accepting ourselves, and that's when the real magic begins.

Hubby and I are also readers and so are my kids. We have lots of books too. It's hard to give any up because quite a few I do go back and reread., so I know it isn't easy deciding which to keep.

Hang in there!
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MAMISHELI53 2/18/2013 12:37PM

    I'm kind of like your Mum, a solid Christian, evangelical - "Jesus Freak." My two younger kids drifted away from the relationship with Christ that I hold dear. But I have not stopped loving or accepting them. We had some rough spots in our relationships, but now it is mutual acceptance. Only God knows their eternal destiny. I keep them in prayer. I may not agree with them, but I love them. They're my kids.
I pray blessings for you on your journey to wholeness and health.

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